by Samfriend1 » Fri Oct 27, 2017 3:52 am
Ok, first hi and please pardon if my english isn't that well at times. I will be short in this. I've always had some paranoa issues. But for year ling now it became very progressive and i am doubting my own mind now. Here is the aituation that is bugging me for almost an year now. Last winter i got ill and i had to sign in to a hospital to get medical care (not for mental issues, but a bad pneumonia i got back then) Anyway it turned out the hospital had this cheap fingerprint optical scanners that they use to register the patient bla bla. When i got there i was seriously lightheaded since i was taking antibiotics and pilainkillers for the bacterial infection. The woman there gave me this little mousle like scanner and told me to hold my fingers, i dont remember was it one, two or how manytimes my head was really spinning and i just wanted to take my medicine and go home to heal. When i got back i noticed something liquid like glue or something coming off two of my fingers, but again i was so tierd i never paid any attention. A month later, i was already forgotten about this hospital and everything, when all of a sudden i came to some documentary of how people used faked fingerprints and sometimes even cutted of skin from someone's else fingerprints to fool those scanners. I started to fear that spmethong may have been glued/ attached to my fingers that day? I was very sick and lightheaded when i was to that hospital so if there was anything glued or something i never checked my fingers, i only remember having something liquid coming from my fingers later when in the car. I was at the hospital in december and i only stared to worry abou it months later in february. Through all the summer this thing was occupying my mind till i decited to go back to that hospital to request new verificatiot to see if my fingerprint will match ( i was well propered this time) but the hospital turned out removed those scanners because there were too many bugs. I fear now that databased with those someone else's fingerprints that may have been attached to mine is still holding somewhere and people will accuse me of things i never did. This is the fear i have and everyone i share it to says i am going insane, but things like that have already happened in the world. I understand its sound unrealistic and crazy but my.mind keeps beliving something happened, that someone evil used my illnes to set me up for something. Everytime something good happens in my life i go back to that conspiracy theory and i became scared and angry- angry because i did not inspected and examinec my fingers before pressing the scanner. If i only had a good look at them i should have seen if something was attached, but i was so lightheaded and tiered that i did not. The woman did not also she was just looking at her computer. I dont't believe there is any pill that will make tjis fear go away, and the fact there is no way i can go and check whatever it was different fingerprint because they removed the system drives me more crazy. I keep imagining it eas the fingerprints of some terrorist or some evil person who commitrd something very bad, he somehow got to my apartment the privious night and attached his fingerprints- by removing them surgically first to mine with some glue. I thin i may have forgotten my door unlocked the night before going to that hospital again because i was vey very sick. Ehat is your advice shall i search for help? I never had anything like this on my mind i dont know where it came from..