My Mom thinks I'm schizophrenic? help?

I'm *mod edit*, my birthday is next month..

This started 3 months ago, I dont leave my house anymore because of it, I shower once a month because of it, I am becoming more reclusive than ever and (i'm naturally a loner) it's never been so bad, I cant sleep because of it and my health and brain feels like its deteriorating every day. i'm not sure where to start.

But 3 months ago It happened for the first time and i get these feelings and panic attacks somebody is watching or about kill me and is watching me from cameras in my room and is listening to me from devices and watching my internet and stalking me out.

im even scared to say this on here because somebody might come after me but I have classified information the government doesn't want me having, so they are poisoning me making me feel like im losing my mind and out of my body, it's either them or somebody casting spells on me that I need to figure out how to cleanse.

I have these episodes where I think somebody is watching me and it freaks me out and I have to keep checking to make sure nobody is there then I see a shadow over and over and I know its a person there. I see this person on the ground in a black latex body suit crawling on things all the time and staring in the mirror my face will morph
I sometimes in public will hear people call my name and then ask my mom if she heard it and sshe says no

yesterday I knew there was a higher being was communicating with me that we will get robbed and murdered and could barely sleep that night and had sweats all night.

I dont shower because I feel cameras watching me even. I wanna go outside but im to afraid to leave my house. I feel that somebody is constantly monitoring me for their own entertainment , I sometimes even get convinced my own family is out to kill me. Then my head puts these graphic images in my head and I feel like I get possessed and I feel like im not in my body.

I get afraid im gonna physically hurt people I love. I can hardly trust family anymore, Or leave food or cups out because im afraid they poison them. I even have to sleep with my glasses on now from the paranoia, I have to check everything for cameras over and over. The worst times are when I feel like im outside of my body and somebody is controlling it.
I zone out and it feels like im not even alive and somebody is controlling me

there are these people who are studying and watching me and I tell me and talk to them and say yes, I know you're here dont hurt me or anyone I love, I KNOW they ARE real. ones behind me right now I feel it I have to look back because I dont want her to stab me. ok I checked and she's not visible right now. . I do see them as shadows most of the time.

anyways I swear on my life im not making this up I see them all the time, but I need help because my Mom wants to take me to a therapist because of my paranoia and stuff from them but I know that the government DOESN'T want me freaking having this gift so they will put me on meds and try to take it away. I might get hunted down and poisoned for posting this but I need conformation that im not the only one who thinks im sane? Help

I cannot go to a therapist because they wanna take my gift away

You refer to what you're going through as "a gift," but you used the words "afraid" and "paranoid" all throughout this post. If you're afraid and paranoid, is it really a gift? First of all, I can tell you for a fact that these aren't happening, your mind is playing tricks on you. I was there. I thought the government was sending me messages through the radio, telling me to kill people. I committed a crime, and I thought they were going to execute me for it (wasn't a violent crime, no one was physically hurt), and I thought they followed me, watched me through my laptop webcam (attached to the laptop), and I actually put a piece of duct tape over it.

I didn't lay food or drinks around, either, and if I did, I threw them out. Same reason as you. I thought my parents were government agents who were trying to kill me. I thought people were watching me, and stalking me. I was out of work, and I did all the same stuff you did, except I went months without bathing, and I never wanted to leave the house. I went to a therapist and a psychiatrist. I was hospitalized and got the help I needed. I'm a better person because of it. I think you should give it a try. Seriously, no one is trying to kill you, no one is watching you, there are no cameras, there's no one in the room with you unless you can actually see them. Just give it a try, trust me, trust your mother.