Getting Tired Of Symptoms

Due to having a movement disorder start to develop, I cut out one antipsychotic and halved the other one. I've been occassionally experiencing hallucinations and delusions. It's the delusions that disturb me because I could easily get lost in them and believe them and totally lose my mind.
I really want to learn to cope without my meds. My psychiatrist is allowing me to try. She basically told me to call her if things get unbearable before the next appointment.
My fear of becoming full blown delusional is giving me severe anxiety and it feels unbareable.
I believe underneath my psychosis is a lot of emotional pain. I felt extreme loneliness isolation depression hopelessness grief fear etc very intensly for quite a while before the psychosis started up.
As of yet they haven't decided what to diagnose me but I know I experience psychosis which is why I'm on this forum.