What was your onset like?

I'm curious about people's early warning signs. I'm beginning to suspect some schizophrenic things in my currently bipolar diagnosis. Just want to get some more context before my next psychiatrist visit.

I've been noticing about myself:

-Periods of being emotionally flat and withdrawn. Feels unlike a mood swing.

-Over the past few days I've had an abrupt change in the cadence of my speech. Gotten very disorganized. A lot of strange pauses and cutting off sentences. People are noticing these changes more than they seemed to notice my moods.

-At work I've been spending a lot of time worrying about people noticing my behavior even though I already informed my work about my diagnosis. I also have a greater need for walking breaks. Feel wound up but not particularly energetic?

-My mood swings have always been accompanied with pacing and talking to myself regardless of the polarity.

-Also been feeling a tingling pressure on my forehead and backs of my arms for a whole day now. It seems to run parallel with the change in speech cadence. Maybe random. Maybe relevant?

-I feel like I'm on something right now. Not even moody, just different.


Anyway, just trying to get on top of this. My mood swings have cost me quite a few work days. I want to prepare myself in case I'm about to get hit with more craziness. Any sharing of experiences would be greatly appreciated.

I thought that there is a demon following me and that I'm a vampire, that was some years ago. Then I smoked a lot of pot and my paranoia started. I have BPD so my moods change rapidly but there were (and still are) periods when I felt nothing, I started isolating myself, withdrawing and such.
I was talking to myself a lot, that was before I started hallucinating. Now it's better because I'm on meds but I still experience paranoia, delusions and hallucinations from time to time.
Talk to your doctor and let us know.

-I feel like I'm on something right now. Not even moody, just different.

I have the same feeling right now.