by Symbol of Life » Thu Jul 09, 2015 1:27 pm
I don't experience voices as auditory hallucinations, but I feel "possesed" by these voices, to me they are real people, and I act like them but only when I'm by myself. It's kinda like DID without the memory loss, in fact I thought I had a dissociative disorder but after a big crisis that landed me in a hospital I was put on a high dose of antipsychotics, haldol and risperidone, and then all of a sudden these people inside of me were gone, and I was diagnosed as schizophrenic probably due to my response to medication. Anyways when I was at my worse I had like 15 different personalities and I named many of them, the main and violent one is called Nikki and she still apppears from time to time, there was also a little girl, a man named Bob, and I don't remember if I named the other ones but there was a physically disabled person, a cat, a lizard and also feelings like anger and fear. Now I'm only left with Nikki and even though she's violent, I feel like she's part of me and I don't want her to go away, but my meds don't let her come out too often.
Prev. dx Schizoaffective disorder, BPD, Bipolar 2 Current dx Back to bipolar with psychosis, Cluster B personality disorder
Aripiprazole 20 mg, Risperidone 3mg, Wellbutrin XL 175 mg, Clonazepam 0,25 mg prn, lamotrigine 200 mg, pregabalin 75 mg, quetiapine 50 mg as a spleep aid