Being Watched

Hi everyone

Have you ever felt like your being watched nonstop by somebody or something.
I have had this for years now and its never gone away.
Its like my life is being broadcasted to somebody or some people who ridicule me etc.
It used to be much more intense when i wasn't medicated but it still lingers in my head a lot of the time.
I wonder if any of you feel comfortable sharing your experience of this type of thing with me?

Thanks

For a while I thought the FBI was watching me for contacting someone from ISIS. This all turned out to be a difficult dillusion to let go of but it was just that. I still have trouble taking showers sometimes when my symptoms flare up and make my wife sit in there with me becuase I think someone is watching me.

Had you a family "much present"?

BiB wrote:Had you a family "much present"?

What's a family "much present?"

Uhmm that was a lot around you, very...too attentive and dedicated?

I have an alien in my head who won't leave and runs my life. You get use to it, I just gotta be careful when the alien wants me to do bad things. I'm 31 now and I've had him in my head since I was 16. All day non stop too.

Medication prevents me from "acting weird", but it does not make the alien go away(of course it doesn't since its a REAL alien).

Why were you trying to contact someone from ISIS? I think that is the real question here lol...

But, to respond to your post... I have had many delusions like this.. I once thought I was working with the FBI to assassinate someone...I was only lucky that after someone noticed I was not in my right mind, they called the police and they brought me to the ER and checked me in to the hospital.. It was a very scary time for me... Even in there I was not sure if it was in my head or not, what am I doing in a mental institution? .... Then I have delusions that maybe the car parked down the street is for me, that I said something online or did something in my sleep, that now I am being watched? Always have this problem, this is the big one for me... I have to talk myself back from them going to far... so that I am not a hermit sitting in my apartment to scared to go out. these delusions have gotton so bad that I don't trust my family or friends, or any doctors... making it nearly impossible to help me. I won't eat the food they try to give me or take the pills they think will make me better, because I believe they are trying to poison me. If it wasn't for the new found ability to question reality, I would sit in a ward somewhere and wither away to a bag of bones, and die. I even thought there were cameras all around me, even in my room in the ward, I would scream at thin air. Tell me how that looks?....

Its strange that several schizoprenic persons build in their mind something related to CIA or FBI even if werent fun of this branch.
Maybe you all are really in a mind project LOL

Fors exemple I studied something about John Nash (A Beautiful Mind) and about him I am really sure he have something to do with secret services that wanted him to forget to not say, wanted make him crazy.
But dont believe it about you. I dont want "trigger".

If something is watching by telepathy, we can watch them back.
All energetic links are basically 2 way.

If they don't like you watching back, it says they are bad guys, up to no good,
so all the more reason to watch them.

On a different note, the Toltec seers speak of something that watches us all-the-time.
The following excerpt is from Being in Dreaming - An Initiation into the Sorcerers' World - 1991 Florinda Donner :
"I'm talking about a force, an entity, a presence which is neither a force nor an entity nor a presence", he explained with an angelic smile.
He seemed totally oblivious to my belligerent mood. "Sounds like gibberish, but it isn't.
"I am referring to something that only sorcerers know about. They call it the spirit. Our personal watcher, our perennial witness. "
I don't know exactly how or what precise word triggered it, but suddenly he had my full attention.
He went on talking about this force, which he said wasn't God or anything to do with religion or morality, but an impersonal force, a power that is there for us to use, if we only learned to reduce ourselves to nothing. -------- End of quote.

Elsewhere in the Toltec literature, this force is called Intent.