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How do I explain this to my therapist? *TRIGGER WARNING*

Postby summer_time_235 » Fri Jan 30, 2015 4:26 am

So I have a hallucination named Eros. She is an 11 year old girl. Yesterday, around 5pm, I was sitting in my mom's room, when out of nowhere, she comes sprinting into the room, screaming, telling me to follow her, as she grabbed my left arm as tight as she could, and pulled me towards her. Keep in mind that I was home alone at this time. She tried to lead me to the hallway. She was trying to show me something she was scared of... But I loosened her grip on my arm, and walked back into my mom's room and sat down. A few seconds later, her screaming stopped, and she calmly walked into my mom's room, sat down on the bed, and tried to explain to me that she was having a really bad panic attack, because she saw something that frightened her. But no matter how much I asked, she wouldn't tell me what she saw. Then it felt like everything was in slow motion for about 30 seconds, and she walked out of the room and disappeared. She tends to disappear a lot when I'm talking to her.
About 10 minutes after she left, I started to feel pain in my arm, where she was yanking me and gripping as hard as she could. I looked down, and there are very noticeable bruises, right where her hands were. I know that the bruises are real, because my mom pointed them out, when she got home. She asked me if I did it to myself and I just said that I woke up with them. Which was a huge lie, because she definitely would not believe me if I said that a little girl named Eros made the bruises.
Personally, I have never heard of hallucinations leaving marks on people... But I swear this happened. I didn't do it to myself. I know I didn't. :( :'(
I meet with my therapist tomorrow. How do I explain this?! I don't want them to think that I'm coming up with a lie for self-harming. Please help.
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Re: How do I explain this to my therapist? *TRIGGER WARNING*

Postby ZonedOut » Fri Jan 30, 2015 1:08 pm

Couldn't it be possible that you've accidentally done it yourself when you were loosening Eros' grip on your arm, for example? Hallucinations can't leave marks on you, even though it might seem to you that this is exactly what happened to you. Eros won't harm you physically.

Anyway, I think it will be safe to tell your therapist exactly what you've just explained here. I don't think that your therapist will think you are coming up with a lie for self-harming. I mean, why should one do that if it's just as easy to hide it, in case it would have been intentional self-harm? I would say he will likely only appreciate your honesty, in case you tell him the story in the exact way you've personally experienced it.
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Re: How do I explain this to my therapist? *TRIGGER WARNING*

Postby Cruxx » Sun Feb 08, 2015 8:08 pm

I guess you have already had to deal with the question about what to tell your therapist.

I think you are in less trouble than you suspect.

To me, it sounds like Eros is not a hallucination,
that she is a projection comprised of aetheric matter, which is how she gripped you.
She is not a friend.

Did you see the movie "A Beautiful Mind" ?
John Nash finished his being led astray by a decision, which he stuck to,
but delayed so long it ruined his promising career in academia.

Difficult area to get trustworthy advice, so I'm willing to answer your questions by private message.
Paradox is where thinking gets most interesting.
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Re: How do I explain this to my therapist? *TRIGGER WARNING*

Postby Thedevilwearsasmile » Sun Feb 08, 2015 10:21 pm

You should be able to tell your therapist everything... I tell mine everything that goes on my head, even the really weird or twisted things. That is what he and she are there for. trust what they say and believe them, that is the key to understanding when you are being delusional.

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You should be able to tell your therapist everything... I tell mine everything that goes on my head, even the really weird or twisted things. That is what he and she are there for. trust what they say and believe them, that is the key to understanding when you are being delusional.
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