Hi my name is Michael and I'm 22 years old. I was first diagnosed with schizophrneia 2 years ago. The first year I wasn't taking meds and I was doing fine. I was high functioning playing tennis tournaments and going to college. Mind you I was hearing voices constantly and all they'd tell me was that i'm "gay" or #######1, homo, and etc. I mostly just laughed at them for being so ridiculous. I felt great for the most part. Then in the middle of my school year I started to stress out. My roommates had heard a phone message from a doctor and they found out i was schizo. They started to conspire behind my back and this made me stress out and feel uncomfortable. It was clear to me that they didn't want me to live with them any more. Plus school became more difficult and stressful. One day I had enough, and i checked myself into a psych ward. Ever since then I've been on meds. I think once your on meds its hard to get off them. I have tryed a few times but i felt so sketchy and ill. and yet i'm depressed as f&(* for being on them. I'm fat and ugly and i used to be real handsome. I can't play tennis any more because i'm to sedated and knocked out. plus i think my functioning is worse on meds.
whats a safe way to come off meds or should i just f&*$ it and quit them totally or decrease slowly? I'm on 500mg of seroqual. also are their any good articles online about coming off meds?