Does anybody else feel "out of place" in this world?

Does anybody else get that feeling... that you are not part of this world and that it does not feel real at all?

I do not just mean society, when in nature the feeling diminishes and i feel a little more "in place" but still that feeling lingers there all the time.

Also do you find no matter how long you have been around human beings that you do not or fully do not feel "part of them"? It's a feeling like you and the humans do not "match" somehow, not in the way of friendship but just like if you were a different being and you were suddenly plonked down in this world and society.

It also feels like no matter how hard you try you can never fully "get" human beings, you might understand why they feel the way they do but that feeling is still there.

I get the same feeling from the animals of this world, even though they are wise and sometimes a spirit visits you in them, you still feel like somehow these are not the same as the anmials back where you come from. they are completely different.

Plants, feel more in tune with but they are not the same as back where i came from.

My family, i am "used" to them and love them, but underneath that almost overpowering feeling lingers.

this whole universe, the physics and laws of it feel backward an alien to me. Not backward as in retarded but backward as if i've just stepped into a mirror world and everything does not work how i remember it to "back home".

I know that i'm a hybrid of different races, as all of us are with different concentrations of races DNA and that my soul is not from here.even though i have been all over the place in the universe through reincarnation and soul experiences, that point is really driven home all the time.

Everything is not real to me and back to front.

It's always felt like this, all the way from when i remember some parts of life as a toddler, it's not gone away at all, in some cases like my powers have changed and gotten stronger, that feeling has gotten stronger too to the point i feel out of tune to this reality.

I don't know why but along with that feeling i have an urge to "correct" it somehow, the underlying laws of the universe themselves.

people say you do not "have to" do this, but i feel like sometimes i must do.

you can come up to me and say that all humans feel like this , i've had that said to me many times.

when sometimes the humans and animals push me further out of this world further alienating, as punishment because i'm a soul on parole, so they feel they have the moral right to treat me like rubbish sometimes, i better not be nasty to a angel special human, i do not know sometimes that i am doing things wrong because it feels very different all of it , i feel like crying and going back to spirit form,

i just do... going back home.

one day i am going to go back.

i try to help but i almost always keep bumping my head against the ceiling of this reality.

almost everything about myself feels alien.


what does everybody else feel?

Sometimes I dont feel "synched up" to this world. Like its hard to relate to people. I have never had a problem with animals or plants, though.

Ive spent a good portion of my life exagerating emotions to match the level of others, but I certainly go overboard from time to time.

Its very much like you said, it feels like I dont belong here. Almost like I come from another place or time. I try not to think about it too much, and do my best to fit in. And I dont feel like this all the time, usually only in stressful situations or crowded places.

There are lot of times I dont feel synched up with the world, and by that I dont mean people etc i mean the universe itself. This feeling is a huge contrast to when i do feel synched up with universe. Maybe meditation would help but that seems out of reach to me most days.

I have felt this way my entire life. It isnt always at the forefront of my mind, I actually got my "human mask" functional to the level that I believed it was real. The ultimate delusion, I guess. That I was "one of them", just a normal guy.

'twas the reason for my previous "delusions", I think. I am/have been an alien, a replicant, a werewolf, and a psychic vampire. All of this was based on the knowledge that I am not a human. So, i must be something else. What precisely i am is not known to me. But i know what i am not - a person.

Always feels as though i am outside of the home where the people are, looking in the window as they enjoy life. I do want terribly to be like them. To be invited in and eat and sit by the fire and laugh and be accepted.

This is not going to happen. No matter how much i study and observe and try to mimic, i will never actually be one of them. No more than a talking parrot. It isnt talking, it is only repeating sounds. It doesnt actually understand what it is saying.

Im just going to have to get comfortable with me as i am, in this place. An outsider.

I want to go home.


This made me sad but it feels good to let it out.

The voice of a fellow prisoner, locked away in a different cell, echoes down the corridor. Its faint but I can hear it and understand the words. Im not so alone after all....