Know they're talking about me, but not hear them

I used to hear them loud & clear, all the time. They always told me bad things about myself & I believed/believe them. Gradually they talked less & less (30 yrs), but they have continued to talk at me in different ways , as well as the old way, just not as much. Sometimes, they say something I can hear but not immediately understand, it's like it's jumbled. The most disturbing is when I know (& I don't know how I know, I just do) they are saying bad things about me but I can't hear them. I feel horrible & don't even know why. Does anyone else have such devious, sneaky voices?

I don't have that, my voices are loud and proud.

I guess it goes back to not caring what people think of you or say about you behind your back.