album that has song about me

does peoplle actually remember what goes on when they are then re-educated that they have a mental illness.

I at least remember thinking rationally while slightly over aroused by sleep deprivation and marijuana use. euphoric and this particular song sounding like he says my name and really resonating with some of the lines. epic song http://youtu.be/RxcODnpbzJY

....about a girl and they had broken up and he got caught in her spell again and wanted another time in her arms, suffered his fate into his 50's about this girl and being truly alone.

but first a good song She Is the Dark. http://youtu.be/iQzisL_aDxM "when she curses your land its not her hand"

highly recommend for anyone who gets into metal.

hard to describe this song apparently being about me, the lght at the end of the world....its long song on ablbum only just listening to it now so don't know which song yet that is about my suffering with the ladies, had the experience that I was humble about thinking this song was so tragically like my story....over the girl now though she still comes into my dreams...had a psychic war over her not so long ago when I was raw enough to feel the let down over my life and how it basically ruined me socially when I moved accross the other side of city basically a new city.

-- Thu Apr 25, 2013 6:38 am --

back when I was into girls on a big number of years without antipsychotics ######6 with my love button/ actually love sickness is both transcendent in nature and causes decline in eating and sleeping markers for developing psychiatric disorder, what if love is like a psychiatric disorder, certainly hormonal problems drop back to prolactin on antipsychotic, maybe even half the reason the drugs apparently work on unsettled "psychotics"

. music doesn't resonate with me so much these days...spose that get attributed to the "illness" they ignore the drugs affect other then the magical notion it works on symptoms and thus medicine. I need a bit more then that.

wanting to get over aftershocks of that realtionship was a real marker for going nuts and kicking sleeping dogs....she's a scorpio, and old friends wer part of this web of deciet and power over whether I could transcend or not...I called angels in the latest episode of transcendence perhaps amplification of senses through neurogenisis but then got engulfed by an astral army, not sure who they really were.