esoteric cosmology theory of schizophrenia

Sorry I can;t better describe from my current situation on medication on subduing apparent psychosis. I recently came across esoteric cosmology http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Esoteric_cosmology that explains what made me tick after experiencing psychosis and several admissions from family crisis over snowballing over worries about my use of cannabis or change in behaviour I was learning yoga and interested in meta-physics and discovery, cannabis was like a tool for experiencing these planes of consciousness. but my motivation was transcending ordinary consciousness, the tools for recovery also incorporated in the philosophy of energy work and focus toward mystical states. I took on warriorship and Taoist philosophy to staying grounded and perception tuned and sensitivity to energy and subtle forces and magic of nature.

I guess esoteric cosmology is its about what our consciousness is capable of to reaching in the divine creative force of the universe and study of nature I guess most people occupy lower spectrum of higher vibrational states as the material plane, such as psychiatrists and label what is able to be achieved with the motivation as such to have desired an expanse in consciousness with practice and learning [somethibg the antipsychotics shut down with memory problems and drastic changes in lifestyle patterns of activity of mind and body and dulls the spirit...is about potentials and transcendence and learning from it like stuff that can;t be expressed in words or any attempts at such psychiatry are defining as delusion...

my chakra's don;t resonate like they used to unfortunately, I had a theory that the mind exists in vibrational energy of the chakra's or I could see how they opened my up to more spiritual states from willpower and focus and getting grounded in what it means to be human from perspective of life and death, maybe we have visors up that limit our consciousness to the material plane, the planes are actually interesting http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plane_%28esotericism%29 includes the astral plane but interesting that it goes beyond that to more spiritual and divine reaching the godhead according also to kabbalistic tree of life.

I also studied the book of enoch that was interesting to get a different perspective of what mankkind represents, contact with archangels although my experience was more amusing and bizzare but got me on track to lifestyle benefits quit smoking and delirium from alcohol, some spirit guides that took on strange turns when emotion stirred in things like jealousy, I could only describe them as arriving astrally-i didn't always know ramifications of whether their consciousness was perceiving the astral voyage? hard to explain---kinda new to me since last year in learning a Taoist internal exercise called microcosmic orbit that I sore Buddha or an immortal of some kind, like seeing a reflection from that divine state of bliss and perfection in energy circulation that does not leak energy like a normal mind does when it attaches to forms in perception of consciousness and is stirring unsettled, I guess It could be determined a hallucination?

or some kind of chigung deviation syndrome from wrong practice of microcosmic orbit? that it enhanced function of third eye and is an unfamiliar possibly evolutionary in impact on consciousness---I rode unfamiliar territory in a very powerfull meditation tool.

which brings me to Religious and Spiritual Problems, for it is in the DSM IV and regards religious or spiriual practice and having a change in perception and behaviour that could lead to diagnosis of psychosis.......mystical states, shamanic crisis, meditation, visionary----funny enough all different terms for a lot of psychotics---some mighn;t end up studying tantric energy $#%^ because they got psychotic or they got psychotic because they got interested in the paranormal and magic
[not wichcraft according to the bible, as that is translated from pharmakia which is where pharmacy originates---it was taught from fallen angels as well as making of mirrors, makeup, jewelery, weapons of war, making of drugs pharmakia etc---the angels that resided over such things as copper were distraught and perish with the consequences of betraying mankind's destiny and that of the earth and our spiritual connection to nature---perhaps thats why we are in the state we are in---this force of the fallen angel or satan some might say is interesting that those in fields of pharma science and medical establishment don;t know that.

Hey a psychiatrist would say I have religious and spiritual delusions, no matter whether I'm talking about what brings me to your attention and going into detail about some funny $#%^ and what it means to me, more interested they are is to mark you our with a psychiatric disorder and get you on a regimen of powerful mind drugs.

and maybe if they are clever they could detect a tangent, or at least I;m gonna pick up on it somehow and break complitely with stimuli over the kind of situation I am in and kknowing what is in store for me once the drugs take hold and getting treated like $#%^ and not until you take your drugs for long enough do they consider that you are well enough it is a load of $#%^. Once your compliant they don;t treat you with the we;re gonna get you and make you have this $#%^ for as long as you stay objecting to the situation.

The third eye, the pineal gland, yes, opening that and observing what came across it in the middle of the night, yes, that is how I "got my schizophrenia", or became entranced and infinitely entertained by another world much richer than the one I inherited from my parents on earth and my home species the homo sapiens. Yeah, opening that eye, is that a gift? More of a decision, a willfulness and a playfulness, a demonstration of toughness in a way, that I can go farther than most, I can be "out there" and still do all the little things homo sapiens do. Opening the eye is a decision, but the stuff that comes across it in the middle of the night? That's a gift, or a curse; it's nothing to be afraid of, though it'll try to scare you to get your attention, it's simply infinite knowledge, and in a way it's dangerous, and many whole chunks of cultures are taught to stay away, and these chunks of culture populate day to day society. Then the chosen ones, possessed, we open the third eye and all hell breaks loose, the astrated hole out of which demons fly up and gods look down, the hole that opens when we explain mysteries, as we become hierophants and mystagogues, and you know I've always known it to be true: at the scene of hierophany, a hole opens up between the worlds. That is how you open the third eye.

And somewhere I read that the psych meds actually cause the calcification of the third eye, kind of like a glaucoma over the spirit world, and that is how they help, as some people are not prepared to deal with the spirit world or the collective unconscious as the Jungians call it, too full of fear to get anywhere, and also why they can inhibit the magic powers...

I have the same problem with pdocs - every last one of em strongly suggest I take heavy psych meds, on such heavy doses I'm sleeping or a zombie. And historically, most shamans are feared just because they have access to the magic. People worry we will use our magic to take away their comfort or cheat them out of their posessions, or I think in the pdoc's case they are just worried they are being made fools of, if not actually frightened of our magic, or sometimes I imagine they are just cogs in the wheels of the military-academic-industrial powers that be, in charge of making sure none of us get too far developed that we take on disciples and start to rule their world, afraid for loss of thier power.

I looked at the link on esoteric cosmology and it included Nagualism; I am half aztec indian and so my native religion on my mother's side is Nagualism, and the shamans tell me the "veil between the worlds is thin" for me; my great grandmother was an aztec medicine woman, and all my dreams and hallucinatory visions are of an aztec nature and very powerful, it seems to me. A curse more than a blessing these days, but whatever it is, it's how I am
-onderdonk

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their tincture is another option that has more doses, but less amount.

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this one is the less expensive and is effective a 3ml.
this one is like the 5% with seed oil of the first but contains more.**

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the proper neurotransmission of the brain should be some cbd as well natural cb1 receptors activated. also the ingredients containing the proper anxiety compounds.

there are a lot of flower essential and a few whole plant. mostly seed, but i think organic whole is better.

i would get 1, 2, 4 combined one alone isnt full ap.

thanks a lot for getting back to me on that one...

the hempaware site seems the best, others sound like oil of the seed too much....I'll have to contact them about getting it australia the site just pops onto paypal site when you click order now.....interesting it says it contains no CBD or does it, surely it does...hope you get back to me.

-- Thu Feb 21, 2013 10:12 pm --

how do you know newtons pharmacy is 5percent with seed oil? it jsut says seed oil.....how much would you need to get enough CBD's?

http://www.hemptraders.com/p/8502335/eo-10.html

found another one through facebook the hemp traders.

they say they don;t contain CBD????whats going on there I really like the sound of this even for aromatherpy..

you tried it right? so cannabis essential oil works as an alternative for you?

what is the deal with dixiebotanicals dew drops, it says its made from hemp oil but contains higher concentrations of CBD apparently...have you tried the dixie x products visualisations?

the hemp seed oil is probably as good as fish oils

my original post doesnt really have the theory of schizophrenia but esoteric cosmology could be grounds to understanding the experience....something that come to me writing a letter to my consumer relations manager for my psych treating team....that psychotics are touching on process of transcendence to incorporate other dimensions and planes of existence and potentials of consciousness like the astral realm that is usually limited to us reaching the end of life on the material plane...put a long story short maybe psychotics are addressing karmic level stuff beyond life and death during life as part of a plan for ascension and destiny as an ascended master or fulfilling our requirements during life to learn wisdom and heal karmic level as part of purpose/antipsychotics cut this all short as they can't understand the reality of life and death...grandeur comes into in in thinking we have a special place in the world or that somehow special or different in being able to appreciate different layers of existence...

its part of transcendence that gets cut off by antipsychotics and our destiny beyond life and death encompassing a broader reality then a psychiatrist that is limited in viewing reality as an expression of the material plane, they discredit any insight into other realms as delusion because they don;t know any better..

this idea that psychotics are addressing deep soul level learning is interesting maybe some are more aware of the nature of transcendence then others,,its important for destiny and maybe this is half the reason why we fear psychiatric processing that they are so limited in self-awareness that they see as symptoms of paranoia about medications and the establishment from being cut short and our destiny manipulated of course they aren;t gonna be able to understand consequences and destiny beyond death or see me as deluded for knowing spiritual development and what it means from a broader scope of reality of life on earth. I expect more of an apparent professional to distinguishing what is symptoms of a struggle with morality and ethics,

knowing morality and ethics may force the psychotic into isolation in knowing evil forces in a corrupt society, friends and family all part of the collective herd.....perhaps some have a desire to live life according to divine plans for us and beyond the corruption from original sin and corruption of the fallen angels

or am I describing my battle as a schizotype not so much schizophrenia, although the profession has made the terms interchangeable and schizotype spiritual people are deemed schizophrenic with the delusion that they have some medical illness that needs "help" with brain disabling drugs

so if i am reborn as a human I hope i can teach my family to back of when I am transcending or traumatic memories spark the desire for evolution, can't go through another life treated as mentally ill for my desire to transcend ordinary bounds of consciousness and into the unknown and archetypal forces of life and perception.