do I have schizophrenia??

Hi guys,

I am here cause I am despered. I had a problem with obsessive thoughts in the past but I maeged it greatly and this summer I read on a web that it might be OCD..pure O. I was so scared about it and started to search on the web and my condition got worse. I started to think that I am not immune on mental illnes. I started to devolp thing that I am becoming schizoprenic. I went to see few shrinks and all told me that I am not and one said that I am to old to develop it and that only paranoid type can be manifasted little later. I was so scared that I started to think about that and my mind is telling me that I am developing symptoms. I read in the paper that one sufferer killed hes wife as he thought that she was against him I was so scared that I started to think what if I do that and what if this pop on my mind. I thought what if my fiancee is against me and I was terrified how could I think about that and I know that this is irrational and not normal but it scared me as this is delusional thought and that people who suffer from schizphrenia think on this way. Now I cant remove this out of my head even I know that it is irrational and I dont beleive in that. Also I started to read about schizphrenia on web and every symptom that I can see I start to think that I can get it.I feel like I am developing it consciously.I am always seekin reassurence on web but I dont know what is wrong with me

Also I must say that I am hypochondriac and had three phases in my life with AIDS,Cancer and DT.I am 32 years old male..

Many thanks for the support

people on the internet can not diagnose you. But based off what you wrote it does not sound like you have schizophrenia..
It sounds like you are just trying to convince yourself that you have it..

I'd look more towards something like Generalized Anxiety disorder, based on what you described. Talk to a doctor about it. I imagine they'll try a SSRI on you first.