Epically Schizoid Moments

that time i was totaly alone and nothing happend
that is a schizoid moment

I'm glad to know that there are other members - besides me - of the I-cut-my-hair-myself club
I couldn't stand the hairdresser being too close.. and the silence was awkward.
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One of my SPD moments is that I unfriend long term "friends" on facebook suddenly, and silently, which leaves them wondering "why?!"
Unfortunately I usually block them afterwards so there wouldn't be any awkward "explanation" conversations.
I like them but long term relationships/connections get on my nerves, and become unbearable.

I am unable to say 'no' to social situations, but invariably I end up just not showing up to functions without calling to apologize. I just don't show, I think I am pretty well known for that now.

People want to become friends with me, but as soon as they try to get close, I run the other way. Friendships seem like a lot of responsibility.

I live almost like a hermit. I would never go out if I could avoid it. I hate interactions with people, even the cashier at the grocery store.

Adna

People want to become friends with me,........

people always want what they cannot have

I had to drive to Petrol station to get some food.
I was wearing wide pants , three quarter length with a long top ( which made my legs look short ) ; sandals and mismatched socks.
En route I grabbed a scarf from the back seat of the car to wrap around my head while I smoked a cigarette ( cant bear the smell of smoke in hair. ) I forgot I had big sunglasses on my head. I think the scarf must have looked like a bandage, and on top of the sunnies, it made my head look peculiar. There was queue at the cashier but I was served first? I think they thought I had encephalitis or somethin...

I had to go to the ER for something, and it was so busy that day that I was put in a room with two other patients. We all had to wait over 6 hours together before finally getting checked out. I was between the two of them and they were talking over me until one of them was moved out.

I had been zoning out due to being in a lot of pain and not wanting to get dragged into their conversation, but now that it was only me the remaining patient kept trying to engage me. Whenever they would ask me a question I'd respond, then 4-5 seconds later realize I should ask them the same question back to be polite. By then too much time would have gone by so I'd have to choose between awkwardly asking the delayed question, or simply letting it slide by unasked.

After a while they gave up and started reading. Noticing I had nothing to read and no phone with me (I don't have a cell phone because I have no one to call, lol) they kept offering me magazines, or to use their phone. They were very polite and nice, especially considering they were there with their own problems, but I just wanted to be left alone to zone out. It reminded me of the Seinfeld plane episode where Elaine was getting fed up with Puddy staring straight ahead rather than reading a book.

For a while there was no noise except for the other patient occasionally hiccuping, but eventually they started crying (they were in a lot of pain too). After a few minutes I thought I should say something. The best I could come up with was to say "Hey, your hiccups have stopped" To which they responded "Yeah, because I'm crying!"

After that we just sat there in silence.

I used to be able to fake it a lot better than that but I've gotten horribly out of practice.

^^^^ Interesting you feel you are the inadequate person here.

I immediately feel that other person was being over the top friendly and that would arouse suspicion and mistrust in me.
Their chattiness followed by tears would have reeked of attention seeking beahviour,
The mood swing from being chatty to crying would have made me think they are coming down off something....
Over all I would have found them intrusive and unbearable.
But I wasnt there so shouldnt really judge

salles wrote:^^^^ Interesting you feel you are the inadequate person here.

Not so much inadequate as feeling very alien. It was a reminder of how different my personality is from what is 'normal'. I hadn't been in a situation to have a casual conversation (in person) with anyone like that for well over a year, so it was a really jarring switch to suddenly be between two strangers that wanted to chat.

salles wrote:The mood swing from being chatty to crying would have made me think they are coming down off something....
Over all I would have found them intrusive and unbearable.
But I wasnt there so shouldnt really judge

Well we were both in a lot of pain (enough that we got put on morphine once a doctor checked us out), and were really hungry/thirsty since we weren't allowed anything to eat or drink, so I think that was their way of attempting to deal with it. Talk to keep their mind off of it. I'm pretty sure they were there due to a miscarriage too, so there was that they were dealing with on top of pain.

^^ Ok. I forgive them.

I often misinterpret . If there is a double meaning to things, I will take the least obvious meaning.
At work , we had to order a product for a customer. I asked my assistant to ring and find out how soon we could get it. While negotiating on the phone she looked at me and said 7 to 9.
I freaked and said 79 days, wtf!! She laughed, shook her head and said again 7 to 9.
I said 729 ? what does that mean...thinking it was a code we had to supply? She was trying to wrap up the phone call while I kept asking what does 729 mean??
It transpired , she was trying to tell me it would take seven to nine working days to come in.