Hi,
I just happened on the Wikipedia article on Schizoid Personality Disorder today, and I felt a real shock of recognition at many of the descriptions. I am outwardly a very stable, employed, married middle aged man, admired for my stoicism and even keel generally. Hah. Inwardly, I am usually writhing with discomfort when I am around other people. But I would not say that I am overall extremely unhappy, perhaps mildly depressed at all times. I still get great enjoyment at simply observing the outside world, enjoying food and drink, or appreciating music, art, and literature. Anyway, I guess I am about to go on a little journey of self-discovery, although I think many on this forum will think to themselves, at this, what is there to discover, and what do you think you will do about it anyway? And I agree with that.
But right now I want to ask about memory issues. I have a bit of a technical job, which has always come very easy to me, but I have noticed that I am forgetting work conversations, or decisions I have made, or even things I have written lately (last several years perhaps). Just this afternoon I wrote a long technical article for our company wiki, and when I went to publish it, I did a search to figure out where it should live, and I found an earlier article I wrote about the same topic! I had completely forgotten it! In fact I still don't remember writing it. And I only wrote it six weeks ago. This is honestly somewhat troubling. My first instinct as far as an explanation is that I find my work so tedious that I am kind of shielding my deeper self from it, so I put it off for as long as I can, and then I forget about it immediately after. I would like to add that the people I work with seem to think I do a fantastic job haha, and am insightful and caring, and all that. hahah.
Thoughts please? I'm a little weirded out right now.