Why the avolition- My God!!!

I'm having one of those lethargic, feeling-ugly, moldering into the bed days. Avolition to the max. Sometimes it's been so bad I really thought it might lead to a psychotic break.

I've just come here to whine, not for advice. Don't you think I've tried all the tips and tricks, and continue to do so?

I sleep at least 9 hours a night, though I can't vouch for the quality. I run about twice a week, 6+ miles each, and just ran yesterday. I get a feeling of accomplishment and a boost in mood, and even a sort of sociality from it, as I get waves, nods and smiles from other runners. But I've never gotten a runners high, and I always need to really psyche myself up to get started. I walk about a mile almost every day, at least, but today's about 20F so I'm a bit unmotivated to even step out the door.

Like the OP, I want to accomplish things. Important things. I want to be creative. To create culture. I work on many projects, but I want to complete them more, and better.

This procrastination, this avolition, this apathy, is a mystery to me.

I hope I'll do better tomorrow.