I have a question that I know many people ask

HungryJoe wrote:

AdamKadmon766 wrote:

Caellic wrote:

AdamKadmon766 wrote:I was afraid of that... I really wanted to be told that I was not. I don't like the idea of having a "disorder". I guess I will just have to learn to live with it... somehow.

Supposedly it's not actually a "disorder" unless it's affecting your life negatively and you wont know if you have it for sure unless you go to a doctor. So if it's not bothering you that much in day to day life sort of way I wouldn't worry about it.

I just had to quit my job because the social part of it was driving me nuts now I have to work as a janitor with a lower pay and no benefits... does that count?

Oh it's a disorder all right. You may be OK with it now, but you're bound to run into problems sooner or later. Ironically knowing that you're schizoid can help you avoid troubles by realizing what sort of job situations you just won't fit into. The negative side of knowing is the risk of becoming your diagnosis, picking up or developing traits that a schizoid supposedly "should" have. Don't forget that schizoid is just a label, it's not you. I did forget that for a while.

As for jobs, yes that counts, but no benefits? You're working alone, don't you? Isn't that a great benefit?

Well, sort of I work with some people but they ignore me so it feels like I was alone, so yes it is a great benefit but I still wish that they paid me better.

They should have more jobs that cater to different personalities.. it's too bad they don't. I'm kind of in the process of trying to figure out what I can do to make money to support myself.. but I've never worked in my life. The people thing bothers me.

I was just wondering something, i also feel stress and anxiety in some social situations, like at work (i don't fit there and i feel bad), but am i not supposed not caring, i mean, if really i didn't care about people , i would just go work with them without any problems. I guess in some way people can touch me if they can make me feel bad.

just saw that on the blog of alex foster:

Ideal jobs for schizoids involve solitude or a minimum of interaction with other people. Given the fact that, if placed under constant pressure, schizoids can have brief psychotic episodes it really is better if we have as much alone time as we need.

I will soon begin a job where i will have to work with other people, i know it will be very hard for me, i am already anxious only by this idea. But i can't imagine that i could become psychotic, it just seems so different from what i am. I am a totally logical and rational person, i can't imagine myself being delusional, having hallucinations etc

Do somebody on this board experienced these psychotic episodes?

lafcadio wrote:But i can't imagine that i could become psychotic, it just seems so different from what i am. I am a totally logical and rational person, i can't imagine myself being delusional, having hallucinations etc

Do somebody on this board experienced these psychotic episodes?

I've had a brief psychotic episode from pressure. It included paranoia and auditory hallucinations (voices). Being rational is no defence at all against becoming psychotic, but it might help you realize that the most bizarre consequences of it, such as voices, is really your own brains doing. I say "might" because you only have one brain and if it starts malfunctioning the very same brain must realize that it's on the blink and initiate actions to correct. I realized that the voices where my brain, but the paranoia went on undetected by "me". But lets not exaggerate the problems with this. I've had one such episode in 42 years and I've been working for 22 of them.

Well I'm not sure about me having any psychotic episodes under pressure, but when I was younger I used to not have a lot of control over my emotions. Anytime I was under a stressful situation I would cry.. sometimes I'd cry and couldnt really say what the problem was. I wouldn't just cry, I'd scream very very young then came just crying.. So that would happen anytime I was placed in room of people and have to be with people by myself. I had to go with my mom at a young age to my sisters school for where they show the parents everything and I had a cookie and apparently a boy took the cookie just as a joke not being serious and I started crying, cuz I didn't understand it was a joke. I cried all the time in pre-school, and by 3rd grade it become a monthly thing, they mentioned having me see a counselor then, not to me they told my mom, but I never went and seen one and finally by 4th I stopped.

I have everything under control now, but I can see where if I'm under a lot of pressure I could definitely crack and not be able to control them again. It would have to be a lot of pressure though.

AdamKadmon766 wrote:
As I grew older my parents began to allow me to go out but now I really didn't see the point and preferred to stay in my room all day and do things like play videogames and read books (for some weird reason when I play games my body sort of plays by itself and my mind just wanders off into all kinds of thoughts so videogames have become my favorite activity since they make me disconnect like that). I love to get lost in my thoughts and fantazise about other worlds and "what if"s.

That's me...and I'm 29.

gpierre wrote:

AdamKadmon766 wrote:
As I grew older my parents began to allow me to go out but now I really didn't see the point and preferred to stay in my room all day and do things like play videogames and read books (for some weird reason when I play games my body sort of plays by itself and my mind just wanders off into all kinds of thoughts so videogames have become my favorite activity since they make me disconnect like that). I love to get lost in my thoughts and fantazise about other worlds and "what if"s.

That's me...and I'm 29.

Me as well... 26 (about to turn 27). But why is it like this? Would we be any different if the world was like in our minds? Would we really be that person? Perhaps we just want to be elsewhere, regardless of where we are? Is there a spot in this world where one can be, without wanting something else? Silly world... silly people... silly thoughts.

radicality wrote:Me as well... 26 (about to turn 27). But why is it like this? Would we be any different if the world was like in our minds? Would we really be that person? Perhaps we just want to be elsewhere, regardless of where we are? Is there a spot in this world where one can be, without wanting something else? Silly world... silly people... silly thoughts.

I think these are interesting questions. Oh, and I'm 42 and like that though I only play strategy games, preferably ones where I ultimately get to rule the world, so I don't zone out while playing, but before and after.

HungryJoe wrote:I think these are interesting questions. Oh, and I'm 42 and like that though I only play strategy games, preferably ones where I ultimately get to rule the world, so I don't zone out while playing, but before and after.

A schizoid ruling the world.. Somehow I don't think that would be a very good idea..