Expectations

What are your expectations for yourself? Are you fulfilling those? Has it caused stress and/or depression and/or anxiety if you weren't?

I feel like not understanding who I was put undue pressure on me. I kept trying to understand why people were like they were and why I wasn't that way. I think I am coming around to who I really am and it's very comforting. I still wonder what took me so long to figure it out. Of course, part of it has to do with lack of resources. Things may have been different if I were born 20 years later.

Live. Die.

My only expectation of myself is to continue to have the means to support myself through working. I don't really have any expectations socially or with anything else.

I used to have astronomically high expectations for life and myself. It was very bad for my health, and I was perpetually miserable. Gradually (and sometimes not so gradually) lowering my expectations over the years has basically been my self-administered "treatment". Though the problem when you need to keep actively debunking your instinctive expectations is that you start to see how everything is fundamentally stupid and meaningless. You lose the natural sanity-protecting properties of moderate ignorance.

Today my only expectations revolve around staying sane and healthy.

The idea of having expectations of myself confounds my brain a bit, if only because I know how I will behave. I'm not a mystery to me.

Do I set standards of behaviour for myself. Of course. Do I meet those standards? Yes also. Do I set goals for myself? Sometimes. I more plan things and work on those plans. I'm not an achievement oriented person.

Ashlar wrote:Live. Die.

Considering you are here, I congratulate you on figuring out the first part.

emillionth wrote:I used to have astronomically high expectations for life and myself. It was very bad for my health, and I was perpetually miserable.

Today my only expectations revolve around staying sane and healthy.

I think this is where I'm at. Although, I'm not sure I'd say my expectations where entirely too high and I still burnt out.

smirks wrote:The idea of having expectations of myself confounds my brain a bit, if only because I know how I will behave. I'm not a mystery to me.

I didn't think I was a mystery to myself but I was obviously very wrong. I do think I am improving though. Well, improving with figuring myself out but done with life in general. Maybe that is what I have been denying myself.