BPD courting SPD

^i think i have fear of intimacy too,although i want it baddly.
I have it more with guys than girls i suspect.
Makes me unable to have a very secure longstanding relationship,i am jealous of you being able to have it.

-- Sat Oct 13, 2018 5:59 pm --

Cholls wrote:

LeelaTuranga wrote:i deleted where the

Also, watching Chris Heria's calisthenics videos is so inspiring that, whether or not my SPD friend is interested in corresponding is beside the point. Starting to do pushups consistently is what might one day allow me to do more advanced things:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92w3RCjl2S4&feature=youtu.be

Every relationship has a preordained length. In addition to some disappointment, negativity, and frustration, I did get some excellent insights from my relationship with my SPD friend. Hopefully, he got something good from me, too.

I don't know why i remembered this
https://www.reddit.com/r/funny/comments ... it-android

LeelaTuranga wrote:i think i have fear of intimacy too,although i want it baddly.
I have it more with guys than girls i suspect.
Makes me unable to have a very secure longstanding relationship,i am jealous of you being able to have it.

. . .

I don't know why i remembered this
https://www.reddit.com/r/funny/comments ... it-android

Embarrassingly close to reality. Some of those machines. I really don't know what to make of them

I have a fear of intimacy with everyone. It strikes suddenly, and I begin avoiding people, who frequently become vengeful.

@LeelaTuranga, it works entirely because my partner is like a rock. I loved my late mother- and father-in-law, and miss them now that they've passed away. My boyfriends raised me over the years, mostly my current partner.

I don't have it with everyone superficially.or i have it probably but is not that intense that i can hide it.i have it with boyfriends very intensly only.problematically.
Thank you i will take your advice i will find someone who is like rock.i will go to him like you said.thanks you helped me make a choice

Oh wait i got it suddenly better. I didn't notice it before. That your husband feels like a father and you fell in love with someone else who has spd.
You do seem like you match with him.
I want more the infatuation than feeling like he is my brother or father.
Although i do want an older guy to take care of me and somehow i end up with younger lol
I want to be in love because it makes life better /less boring but with pds it feels so unfufilling and alone but more comfortable i guess. I don't have to deal with my fear but it feels lonely