I feel that i'd rather die than work.

Well, I was at my last job for 10 years because I was an IT programmer and the managers left me alone to do my thing. Unfortunately, being productive leads to promotion and responsibilities. You can only say no so many times or dodge so much before it creates issues. Any normal person able to do what I did would have been extremely happy where I was before I shut down.

I usually had one person I'd hang with but I wouldn't have called them friends. They were people I was OK to be around or go to lunch with during work hours. I used to ride and track motorcycles with a manager but it wasn't about him, it was just beneficial to have a manager interested in the same thing at the time. Friend/manager with non-sexual benefits?

As for isolation, I have a family to keep me sane even though they can intrude more often than I'd like at times. That's expected from a wife and kids though.

Sometimes if i feel life is like a prison.work in a job you hate for so many years,i get ovelwelmed and not want to do anything else after work.

At least i like my home now.i used to hate my home and then was the time i was more suicidal and life seemed more like torture.
someone told me most hate their job but have other things they love to hold on too.
well for me that other things are hard to find, something you want to live for.
other times simple things like music or having a place you like are ok.
i understand others are worse than me and i don't want ot be ungrateful but sometimes i feel is not worth it.the bad feelings are more than the good.
but anyway dying is not easy anyway.

aslo the feeling of not having a job i think it can actually make you more depressed unless you are rich.

iabsurdlyexist wrote:Unfortunately, being productive leads to promotion and responsibilities. You can only say no so many times or dodge so much before it creates issues. Any normal person able to do what I did would have been extremely happy where I was before I shut down.

I used to be assistant manager at a chain restaurant. All was fine until they installed a new manager who didn't give a ###$. Whenever there was a problem at the store and he was AWOL, I'd get a phone call. Sometimes late, on my day off.

No.

I was thinking about quitting when the manager got fired and things went back to normal with a new manager. I had thought about becoming a manager myself but that changed my mind; any job you have to take home with you is out of the question.

sakura1 wrote:Sometimes if i feel life is like a prison.work in a job you hate for so many years,i get ovelwelmed and not want to do anything else after work.

At least i like my home now.i used to hate my home and then was the time i was more suicidal and life seemed more like torture.
someone told me most hate their job but have other things they love to hold on too.
well for me that other things are hard to find, something you want to live for.
other times simple things like music or having a place you like are ok.
i understand others are worse than me and i don't want ot be ungrateful but sometimes i feel is not worth it.the bad feelings are more than the good.

When you really need the money very badly you will be surprised with what you will put up with.

naps wrote:When you really need the money very badly you will be surprised with what you will put up with.

Some days, I am at the tipping point of finding out what that is like again. I have been there in the past but it's a blur. I guess that means I could be forced to experience certain things over again. Threatening my wife with living in a van down by the river is getting old, I need to come up with something else.

I divine that you are young, but you should have said your age. You say that you dwell with your elders. What is this about "in this society?" I have seen this word before, but needed to seek it again in a dictionary. It seems to mean a great body of men who feel of each others customs. How is it that you
fallen under this so? I would have thought it was your family that makes that you must work.