I feel that i'd rather die than work.

I should start this post by stating i am not suicidal or looking for diagnosis in this area. I'm simply sharing my current thoughts and looking for others ideas and experiences on this topic.

I don't really experience emotion but i do have some things i really dislike and cause great irritation (which may mean i do experience emotion, i'm just unaware of it).
One of the things i really hate is the prospect of working for someone doing something i have no interest in atall just to live. I have no real desire to live so the idea of doing something i dislike 8 hours a day so i can keep doing something i also have no interest in doing doesn't really make sense. (i hope you can understand what i mean).

I'm currently unemployed and my parents asked me to sign on (unemployment benefits) which i've done but my complete lack of motivation to look for jobs and dislike of the weekly meetings i have to go to mean i'm likely to be taken straight back off them. I don't want to annoy my parents by doing this but in all honesty i don't care.

In terms of a job the only thing i can think i'd be "happy" doing is a creative job where i work for myself/ employed by someone or a company to work on solo projects where i don't have to interact with people daily. My issue here is i barely have the motivation to do more than eat and browse random parts of the internet so being self employed is currently unrealistic.

It's a lose-lose situation. I can't work for others because i hate it and i can't work for myself because i don't have the motivation. My last option is to not work but in this society that option is only theoretical. This just leaves me feeling i'd rather die and get it over with than bothering to push on to however my existence will alternatively end... Again, i'm not suicidal. Just having a realistic look at options.

That pretty much sums up how I feel also. I just received my one year unemployed badge. Trying to see if I can string it out until I die. That'd be one hell of a badge.

I think you guys are just rationalizing your current predicament to yourselves... I tend to do that as well, but objectively the time I was unemployed after the college was when I was at my lowest point even though I didn't care then. I was completely asocial with antisocial sentiments, alienated, alone, completely cut off... it was bad for my mind having too much time and little direction and preoccupation. I like having some interaction with people even though I will deny if asked directly in person. I am better person when I work and interact with others, everyone is if you dose it right.

Nobody said you're supposed to like your work.

EmpathySucks wrote:Nobody said you're supposed to like your work.

Most people don't.

I have my own business and I still hate working.

Can you make some sort of deal with your parents where they will continue to support you?

I would suggest suffering through whatever is is you have to do to retain your unemployment. Are you diagnosed with any sort of mental illness? If so, maybe you can get disability. Just make sure not to cite "Work Aversion Disorder" as your illness.

Nobody says you are supposed to like your work but that doesn't mean you can't. I don't have a problem with the work, I just can't deal with people and their inconsistencies nor do I want to make other people rich when so many suffer. Make a process, stick to it and results will most likely stay the same. Improve the process to improve the results. People are unreliable, egotistical, self-centered and so on. It's not their fault I can't deal with them though. They seem to like the way they are.

naps wrote:I would suggest suffering through whatever is is you have to do to retain your unemployment. Are you diagnosed with any sort of mental illness? If so, maybe you can get disability.

+1

live for yourself OP

EmpathySucks wrote:Nobody said you're supposed to like your work.

I totally understand that but the purpose of work regardless of if you like it or not is to gain resources for your survival. The real issue i have is that i don't really care about my survival so spending my time doing things i hate so i can continue to survive doesn't make much sense.
It's just causing me to live a life i hate and the thing that's causing me to hate life is also the thing that's causing me to continue living it. It's an awful cycle i need to get out of but don't know how (well, i have one option but people aren't too fond of that.).

I guess my only answer to that is to find work doing something you are interested in. While it may not last forever, enough interests over time will add up to decent work experience. Over the last 20 years, I have had 10 job/position changes and have made near $1.5 million. So, even someone with an attitude similar to yours can be somewhat productive.

When I joined the Air Force, I was interested in mechanics so I worked in aerospace propulsion. Considering my test scores, I could have picked nearly anything. During that time, I switched to equipment mechanic, desk job and then logistics.

I exited the Air Force and moved onto my next interest, which, was computer programming. I got an internship creating/updating brand pages for a large food corporation. I then moved onto IT help desk for a short stint before working for a major railroad. At the railroad, I went from intern to programmer to project management to team management.

Prior to the Air Force, I spent my life going from job to job possibly lasting up to a month or as little as a week. This is why I joined the Air Force, quitting wasn't as easy.

iabsurdlyexist wrote:I guess my only answer to that is to find work doing something you are interested in. While it may not last forever, enough interests over time will add up to decent work experience.

I think this is probably my next best move. Getting easy to leave jobs/ short term jobs so as soon as i grow too tired of it i can just leave and move onto the next. I live with my parents so first i'd need to get enough money to move out as they are very much of the opinion i should go to university and then get a job i intend to keep for decades.
I've tried to explain how i think/ feel but in all honesty i think it's quite incomprehensible to a lot of people that aren't like this.

Also i appreciate the responses, hearing different opinions and ideas on this topic has gained me a bit of a new perspective which i think will probably help in the long run. At worst it's not done me any harm.