I don't really know what's wrong with me.

EmpathySucks wrote:

iabsurdlyexist wrote:

EmpathySucks wrote:I'm not sure if you can be over-assertive.

Going back to Wikipedia, there is some criticism of it. However, it really becomes aggressiveness so you'd need to make sure the other party knew the correct definition. "No, I was being assertive which is good, assholes are aggressive".

I guess this makes me mostly assertive. However, you'd really never know because apathy.

How about acting in complete confidence within oneself but not expecting any reciprocation from another? More simply, being outcome independent.

potatostarfish123 wrote:I have many of the criteria for schizoid personality disorder but i dont think it fully fits. The only ones that don't match for me are indifference to criticism or praise and flattened affect. I am often regarded as a cold hearted person but I have no problem faking emotions. I think I have been faking it so long that I'm not even sure when I'm actually pretending. Sometimes I will think that I am enjoying someone's company but then I realize that I'm not. I don't know how to explain it but it feels like I'm fooling myself into thinking I'm feeling a certain emotion.

Also, I only care about criticism or praise when it comes to work. I feel like a put a lot of effort into my work and will feel self conscious if I am strongly criticized. I don't care about the praise as much, though. What I do know I have for sure is depression caused by having to deal with people all the time. I work in customer service and it's a nightmare. The only emotions I'm feeling are irritation and anger. That is not a schizoid trait, from what I've been reading. I feel irritated everytime I'm forced to interact with people and have to pretend to be nice. I've been able to do it for a long time but I'm sick of it now.

Basically, I actually hate being around people, even my family members. I'm 24 years old and I've always felt this way but I've been feeling it more the last 2 years. I'm not interested in sex with other people and I lack some level of empathy. The only time I feel fine is when I'm alone. My goal is to change my name and move to another state and avoid contact with everyone I know. I'm tired of their expectations of me. Any insights into what's up with me? I don't actually want to change my personality only the depression.

Holodeck wrote:That's usually in relation to being grandiose. I'm that way pretty often too.

iabsurdlyexist wrote:I'll admit, I'm still a work in progress and most likely will be always.