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Re: Love

Postby naps » Sat Feb 24, 2018 9:40 pm

Holodeck wrote:
naps wrote:I preferred playing alone even though I frequently played with other kids. As I grew older the preference shifted toward solitude. I vividly remember one specific moment in the middle school years. I was on the corner of my street talking to this kid and suddenly I wanted to get away from him and go home to my room. Being there and listening to music or playing with my dog was clearly more appealing. That feeling never went away.

I used to daydream alot. I'd wander around in my backyard making up scenarios, voicing imaginary conversations between characters. The neighbors probably looked out of their windows and wondered "what's wrong with that kid?"

Daydreaming has become sometimes uncontrollable these days. Sometimes I don't realize I'm doing it, or if I do, it's hard to stop it. Do you have this problem?

I was always extremely into sex.


EmpathySucks wrote:That's kinda funny when you put that quote last and the subsequent comment.


Yes. It makes me seem a little crazed.
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Re: Love

Postby Holodeck » Sun Feb 25, 2018 5:29 am

Yeah didn't realize it when I quoted that. Merely cut the last bit, since it was the part that didn't apply to my life at the moment. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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Re: Love

Postby naps » Sun Feb 25, 2018 2:12 pm

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Re: Love

Postby EmpathySucks » Sun Feb 25, 2018 3:21 pm

On topic: this day has been fantastic. Mostly focused on learning programming, occasional fantasy and only one short moment of sadness about a girl that exists in my head.
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Re: Love

Postby Alth » Wed Feb 28, 2018 7:12 am

Lust and infatuation, been there. I know what it is and how it feels. It's one hell of a drug, it feels too good, but it's very short lived and doesn't go very deep. I even started to temper myself to not fall for it so simply, yet it's still rather hard to resist.

Love? That's something I believed I'm not capable of, until only recently. I've noticed something that is a bit more than just friendship towards somenone who is a close long term friend of mine. No, she isn't my girlfriend and can't be, I'm gonna have to find someone else, but it ultimately answers the question. Did I ever feel love? Yes, I did, it's just something that has to be built over time, which in my case can be absurdly long.
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Re: Love

Postby EmpathySucks » Fri Mar 02, 2018 9:49 pm

Holodeck wrote:Yup, which is why I went with something shallow like puppy love. Real love tends to be more selfless. Though disappointing (even heartbreaking), the person in love would be alright about it for the most part as the other person was happy. Sure it would be sad, but they would more view the person they're in love with more as an individual who they care for, than something stolen from them.


I missed this post, which had a very interesting thing I didn't notice. While I think what I felt was genuine, in retrospect I was quite possessive. I've said it felt she was "stolen" from me, why? I barely knew her. How could you feel like that for someone who practically doesn't exist in your life?
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Re: Love

Postby smirks » Fri Mar 16, 2018 6:33 am

Sometimes I wish I could feel things. I'm pretty sure I don't feel anything for anyone. Sometimes I wonder if I ever have or if every relationship I had as a young person was just my intellectual empathy run rampant.

When I schedule personal time with people it feels the same as scheduling a doctor's appointment. I don't think that's normal.

No love. No infatuation. No sexual intrigue. Nothing.
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Re: Love

Postby EmpathySucks » Fri Apr 20, 2018 4:26 am

Damnit. I've been pretty down since January because of this. But now, it's all flatlined and I don't feel anything.

I'm feeling like I'm back to "normal", but I kind of miss it even if all it gave me was negative emotions.

Really wish she would have liked me back. So annoying to have this slowly disappear. Wonder if I'll be able to find another one.
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Re: Love

Postby ShowJumpingRabbit » Fri Apr 20, 2018 7:35 pm

smirks wrote:No love. No infatuation. No sexual intrigue. Nothing.


In some ways, you're a very safe person to be around, since nothing good, or bad can happen around you.

(I'm teasing by the way)
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Re: Love

Postby smirks » Sat Apr 21, 2018 6:09 am

ShowJumpingRabbit wrote:
smirks wrote:No love. No infatuation. No sexual intrigue. Nothing.


In some ways, you're a very safe person to be around, since nothing good, or bad can happen around you.

(I'm teasing by the way)


I am a walking drama free zone! :lol:
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