Could it be Paranoid PD?

Another thing to keep in mind is knowing that you could be giving off uncomfortable signals of your own. If a person sees you're making certain signs of not wanting to be there, that could be the cause of why they may treat you like they don't want you around as well.

Basically put we all assume things to protect ourselves, but often times human being over/under assume, and that can be a problem.

PerplexedMan wrote:Surely you must have a reason to push people away? They must be doing something to you. You see the schizoid position is a defense mechanism against perceived threats. Doesn't mean the theats aren't real it's just that most people are emotionally equipped to deal with societal threats in ways that are healthier than the schizoid. I'm sure people are often mean or abusive to you and you are left to wonder why that is. Most people accept the abusive nature of people but deal with it without compromising their real Ness within the world. You can read more about ontological insecurity by Rd laing.

About me I suspect that I am a schizoid and a covert narcissist with paranoid tendencies.

Well the mistrust issue is the main reason I push people away. Nobody is doing anything to me that would warrant being so mistrustful. I can see it if there is a real reason. I definitely will have my delusional episodes. Nothing extreme though. But, of course, those episodes aren't fun. I have to just deal with it and I do a good job of it.

Also, it should come as no surprise that I have had some issues in the past with prescription meds and alcohol. Alcohol is in the picture still, but not as much as it used to be.

There was a stretch where I thought the alcohol was responsible for the delusions. However, medical science doesn't indicate that alcohol would be the cause for delusions after a certain amount of time has past while staying sober.

Holodeck wrote:Another thing to keep in mind is knowing that you could be giving off uncomfortable signals of your own. If a person sees you're making certain signs of not wanting to be there, that could be the cause of why they may treat you like they don't want you around as well.

Basically put we all assume things to protect ourselves, but often times human being over/under assume, and that can be a problem.

Fair enough. Another thing to be aware of is people's insecurities. Sometimes they see something in you they like and think I need to be rude to this person. It's just jealousy. Thing is you can never know fully what is happening.

PerplexedMan wrote:
Basically put we all assume things to protect ourselves, but often times human being over/under assume, and that can be a problem.

Fair enough. Another thing to be aware of is people's insecurities. Sometimes they see something in you they like and think I need to be rude to this person. It's just jealousy. Thing is you can never know fully what is happening.[/quote]

Yup. Like I said. Goes both ways.