What do I have exactly?

First, I'm not entirely sure if this is the right place to post my question but so far my problem seems to be related to the fantasy prone personality disorder, which is in this section. Ok, so this is my problem: Whenever I watch a movie or listen to a song, a book, anything related to escapism, really, I get profoundly involved in it an feel as if the reality is that of the movie or book, especially when it's far from the real reality. This is the purpose of escapism, I know that, but what happens to me is a lot more... so much that when the movie, the book or the song ends, I feel disturbed and torn apart inside and it makes me feel all weird, it's like a part of me realizes that what I was believing wasn't the reality and another part of me just wants to cling on to that fake reality and never give it up, disturbing me emotionally. The feeling goes away only after a few hours, and even then. This is becoming worse and worse as I get older... does someone know what is going on? I know it sounds a little like escapism, but it's really more intense.

It could be just maladaptive day dreaming.

I never get into it as far as living in it, myself, so I can't relate.

From what I understand all PDs have this, more or less, but it could be standalone too, by itself.

CodyCole58 wrote:First, I'm not entirely sure if this is the right place to post my question but so far my problem seems to be related to the fantasy prone personality disorder, which is in this section. Ok, so this is my problem: Whenever I watch a movie or listen to a song, a book, anything related to escapism, really, I get profoundly involved in it an feel as if the reality is that of the movie or book, especially when it's far from the real reality. This is the purpose of escapism, I know that, but what happens to me is a lot more... so much that when the movie, the book or the song ends, I feel disturbed and torn apart inside and it makes me feel all weird, it's like a part of me realizes that what I was believing wasn't the reality and another part of me just wants to cling on to that fake reality and never give it up, disturbing me emotionally. The feeling goes away only after a few hours, and even then. This is becoming worse and worse as I get older... does someone know what is going on? I know it sounds a little like escapism, but it's really more intense.

Well, I can't say that fantasizing is a problem when you are faced with a not-so-understandable World around you. So...you just create your own. It may be called "maladaptive daydreaming" or whatever. But who is to say this is maladaptive?

To me, it makes perfect sense that you would want to escape an unwelcoming environment. This is what those with Schizoid Personality Disorder have to do. They do it through daydreaming/fantasy. Again, it goes back to the non-schizoid world and the Schizoid World being on different ends of the spectrum with their views (for the most part). The Schizoid isn't going to share non-schizoid values much. Most Schizoids have a hard time adapting to the non-schizoid world. You see it time and time again. Any level of adaptation can be considered impressive for the Schizoid in the non-schizoid environment.