How would you like to die?

God's a schizoid! I knew it!!

Prayers answered!

hallelujah!

Preferably within the next couple years, whether I kill myself, die in my sleep, have an aneurysm or a heart attack, or I get ahold of some Nembutal.

I would like to either die after a long life of working at a grocery store, doing nothing with my life, or by suicide. Either a violent, explosive one (shooting myself, blowing myself up, slitting my throat), or a painless one (taking pills, drowning, hanging). I'm self-destructive, I want to destroy myself. I want to be wiped off the earth, be wiped away, my existence being gone. So I can experience peace, or oblivion, or at least a numbness and a respite from everything.

Or failing that, if I recover, I'd like to die for something that I believe in. I would like to be martyred. I would like to give my life for a cause, a movement, or a belief. I'd like to do that.

Want to get into a struggle and get thrown out of a plane. Don't want to die on impact. Somehow I survive the fall and am fully conscious as I slowly die.
I want it to drag out so I can feel it happening.

oh this thread is fun

I'll take a firing squad

I don't like the thought of dying. I have flirted with suicide many a time and been reckless with my life either through drugs or another reckless behaviour and when that has happened, I have told myself that I am alright with dying as long as I feel the rush. However when it had got to the point where my body actually started to fail, an entirely different mentality kicked in. Five minutes of fighting for survival can feel like an eternity. Even when I have tried to pass in my sleep, my mind woke me up when it was time to fight.

Whenever I injected, I always knew there were risks. A year ago I would have said an OD on heroin. I don't want that anymore.

Dying is not pleasant. It goes against everything your body is built to do.

If I have to go, I would like it to be under anesthesia. At least my vitals can be monitored to make sure I do not regain consciousness during the process.

In the most optimistic way possible, having my consciousness uploaded would be ideal.

Squaredonutwheels wrote:Want to get into a struggle and get thrown out of a plane. Don't want to die on impact. Somehow I survive the fall and am fully conscious as I slowly die.
I want it to drag out so I can feel it happening.

Dragging it out ... feeling it happening ... sounds like a job for ... ritual disembowelment!

xcagedsilhouttex wrote:... when it had got to the point where my body actually started to fail, an entirely different mentality kicked in. Five minutes of fighting for survival can feel like an eternity. Even when I have tried to pass in my sleep, my mind woke me up when it was time to fight.

Whenever I injected, I always knew there were risks. A year ago I would have said an OD on heroin. I don't want that anymore.

Dying is not pleasant. It goes against everything your body is built to do.

If I have to go, I would like it to be under anesthesia. At least my vitals can be monitored to make sure I do not regain consciousness during the process.
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Real good to know.

Years ago, I had quietly and vaguely settled on Nembutal or a heroin/opioid (oxycodone?) overdose.

Thank you, xcagedsilhouttex, I'm gonna have to research this and plan it much more precisely.

Death is something too easy to mess up, potentially resulting in failure and a much worse ensuing life. I missed permanent paralysis by 1 vertebra in my teenage suicide attempt.

After enduring cancer treatments, lemme tell you, being controlled by chatty, self-absorbed, hal fast medical 'professionals' is not my idea of a good time. I will do what I can to avoid anything like that again.

Squaredonutwheels wrote:Want to get into a struggle and get thrown out of a plane. Don't want to die on impact. Somehow I survive the fall and am fully conscious as I slowly die.
I want it to drag out so I can feel it happening.

Yes. Since dying is the last thing I will ever do, I'd like to experience it as lucidly as possible.

I do not believe in an afterlife, at least not in a theological sense, but I do believe we all harness some kind of energy, be it cosmic, merely electrical, or something else unknown (and therefore unimaginable). I prefer not to use the word "soul" because it makes me think of Hallmark cards or crazed preachers, but if there are any answers, secrets or revelations (though not the divine kind) to be had, I'd like to believe they're momentarily (a relative term?) accessible when mortality ends.

That said, I wish to go out by being asphyxiated under a pile of puppies.