motivation

What I meant is that nowadays I'm driven to seek epiphanies by my own experience (mostly by writing) than to amass knowledge.

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I geuss some inner sense of duty and desire not to mess up anything that I've started. That's probably why I keep on studying rather well even though I'm sick and tired of it (I have two majors, so it's quite time-consuming). Beyond that, not much. I have to say that maybe hedonism is what drives me the most, although I do act on altruism or curiosity at other times.

The main motivator in my life is the desire to survive and flourish (or live more comfortably), just like every other living thing.
On top of that there are many things that give extra meaning to life (subjective meaning of course, life has no purpose except what you make of it) and 'motivate' certain actions and thoughts.

just like every other living thing.

I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A bird will fall frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself.

Mike Jones wrote:

to stop people (namely my parents) nagging me.

its all about inverse relationship. your not even close

sorry? oh, and i think you mean "you're" not "your".

what i actually meant was that my parents often suggest things to me (not usually social things, they know me well enough) and if i don't do those things or at least say i'll think about doing them, they'll ring me endlessly until i do. so sometimes i do things merely out of a desire not to have endless phone calls all asking me to do that thing.

and as for this:

Mike Jones wrote:

sometimes i'm driven by a need to switch off

Makes no sense. ????????????????

makes perfect sense. my inner monologue, which i've mentioned before, is constant, unless i get absorbed in something else. my uni work is quite heavy stuff, and my brain ends up turning that kind of thing over as part of the internal monologue - i end up driving myself to distraction by monologuing things that have no answer, or that are irritatingly complex.

so, to shut the internal stuff off, i often focus on external things that take very little concentration but which are still vaguely able to keep my attention - trashy tv is perfect for this.

trashy tv is perfect for this.

Whats trashy TV

sitcoms, wild life documentaries, hollywood movies?

wild life documentaries are the best. Most, if not all Movies made in the past 15 years, suck.

There are a few things that give me the 'get up and go' I need to not let myself lay in bed all day.

The first is basic survival. A person generally has to have a job in order to feed themselves and keep a roof over their head. But I assume we've all included 'Basic Necessities' in our responses, so I'll move on.

(What I consider to be) good music, books, and films. Sometimes I see something in those areas that I like so much, and I think to myself, "I can do better!" And I try, and 99% of the time I fail, but I feel enthusiasm as I am trying.

And probably the biggest factor is stress. Not the pulling hair out, I'm going to have a nervous breakdown type stress, but the 'I have some type of deadline tomorrow, I have to get my $#%^ together' type stress. I'll call it 'Procrastinator stress'. I do things last minute, but I do them very well. Especially college papers. I need the fear of an inconvenience to get anything done, usually.

Mike Jones wrote:

just like every other living thing.

I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A bird will fall frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself.

That bird lived its life trying to survive and flourish. I never said anything about me feeling sorry for myself, because I don't, or any other living thing feeling sorry for itself for that matter. Was that just a rhetorical statement or did you have a point?