I'm confused

I just read up about SPD. I've never even considered the fact that I might have it because I didn't know anything about it, except that it's really rare. Sorry if this ends up being really long.
But anyways...

I have every "symptom" except for one.
Everyone always describes me as "indifferent" or laid-back. I DO have emotions, I just don't show them. I actually have to remember to laugh/smile/frown at things, because to me, nothing is really THAT exciting, sad, frightening, or anything like that. I rarely even get angry.

I only have one close friend, and I have a boyfriend. The symptom I was saying that I do not have is the part about the sex drive. I DO have a sex drive and I enjoy sex and cuddling and all that. But if ANYONE else tries to touch me (especially stuff like hugging/holding hands) I don't like it. I don't even like being (physically) close to my best friend.
I don't like doing things in groups of people, I'd MUCH rather be alone. I'd rather people not come to my house because I feel like they're invading my space, and I want them to get out the whole time they're here. I'm extremely relieved when everyone finally leaves. Though...I don't show it.

The only sport I do or have done and actually enjoyed is track and horse back riding. I tried volleyball but I couldn't stand that you have to depend so much on your teammates...that's another thing, I can't stand to depend on people for anything. Even if I really need help.

When people tell me that I am good at something, or I look good, or anything like that, I don't really care. It's not that I feel like they're lying or anything, I just don't care what they think about me, whether it be good or bad.

And the social life. Like I said before I just really prefer to be alone, or with animals instead of humans. I don't like crowds at all. I don't even like being with my family at Christmas, it's just too overwhelming for me. Especially this past Christmas, we had the get together at my house. Everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves except me (like always). People were in MY house, MY space, and I wanted them to leave so I could relax and be alone.

I feel like me and my boyfriend have an unusual relationship. I don't show much emotion at all. We never get in arguments because I rarely ever get upset with him, and he rarely ever gets upset with me. If I were to get upset with him, god knows I wouldn't say anything. Same thing as when he does something good for me...for example when he gives me a gift...in my mind, a simple "thank you" will suffice, but it seems like he is hurt because it didn't get a bigger reaction. I don't know how to get him to understand that I really AM excited about things, I just don't know how to show it.

Anyways those are the symptoms I have...I'm confused though, about the sex part...does that mean that I definitely don't have it? Or do some people with SPD still have a normal sex life?

Sweetleaf1189 wrote:Everyone always describes me as "indifferent" or laid-back. I DO have emotions, I just don't show them. I actually have to remember to laugh/smile/frown at things, because to me, nothing is really THAT exciting, sad, frightening, or anything like that. I rarely even get angry.

This has been said before:

*SPD only means a lack of emotional energy, not a total lack of emotion.
*Asexuality is not a necessary symptom.

The thing about an aversion to touching is an Aspergers symptom, I know that much.

Other than that, this post seems pretty schizoid to me.

Whether a personality type is actually a disorder is dependent upon how much it disturbs your life. Many people prefer a solitary life without actually having a personality disorder or perhaps only having a few mild symptoms of one. If the way you are is not actually making you unhappy or interfering in your life to any great degree, then it is simply best to get on with your life. Things like showing more emotion when someone gives you a gift can be learned, social interactions often require some measure of "acting" even for people who are more naturally social. You seem like a sensitive person who has a lot of need for solitary time... you need to appreciate that and it might be a determining factor in whatever you do but I don't think you need to "wish" a personality disorder upon yourself. But if you are very concerned, it might be worthwhile to see a counselor just to clear up your confusion.

Gary