by chococat159 » Wed Oct 07, 2015 4:42 am
I rarely tell anyone that I have the disorder, but instead, I might tell them certain symptoms so they know what to expect from me. I've told people that I have a poor emotional radar or low empathy, so that if they need my help with something they're dealing with, they really do have to tell me, because I genuinely won't see it. If people start to get close to me, I start letting them in on how many friendships I've dropped over the years because I got tired of the person, so they see what my pattern is for people who try to be friends with me. The rest of the symptoms cover themselves. Flat emotions...don't ever have to mention that. People recognize that. I don't have to tell people that I don't like socializing in general, because they see that by how little contact I'll initiate with any person in my life. They see the lack of close relationships by how much I distance myself from my family, and by the fact that I seem perfectly content with being pretty much alone with some superficial friendships here and there for entertainment. I tried going for the art therapy major in college and ended up failing out of the major because of the symptoms of szpd. I never once mentioned it to my teachers or peers, but they noticed the problems anyway. At the end, I did explain to a couple teachers that I'm aware that I have these issues, but that I originally thought I'd be able to work around them. I instead found that I was fighting a part of my personality that wasn't going to change.
I've told maybe three people that I have this disorder, and I've told those people because either I trusted them to really be able to understand it, or with one case, she didn't get how deeply these issues ran and that she couldn't change them with sheer willpower. That relationship crashed and burned despite me going into full detail about the disorder. I find that people don't get it or blow it out of proportion if I say I have the disorder, but they generally do understand the jist if I just mention how it affects me. The people that see me as a friend understand how I operate and know what they can expect from me. I've been able to make them understand without having to explain the full disorder, even though they likely do see it as an overall problem.