Pictures...

aloofiam wrote:From what I gather, I think that people who do see us tend to think that we always look pissed off or angry at something, but that's just our natural expression.

Do you or anyone else have any idea just why people tend to think this? Several of my teachers have told me that i always look so angry, which always confused me, as i didn't put up any expression.

As for the Pictures: About every picture where i'm meant to smile makes me look utterly retarded. I try to look neutral or uninterested when possible.

PhoenixJay wrote:And Alex Foster. That picture of you on Halloween 1999 is sooo Goddess-like. Your hair is Amazing in a bunch of those pictures, but my favorite has to be the one with you going crossed-eyed with the gentleman in the picture with you...

And thank you for the compliment, lol.

After the big hair cut.

i often get told i look angry. when i have my photo taken (something i try to avoid) i either look miserable or pull stupid faces. if by some small chance someone gets me to smile it's likely to be forced.

i think i look pretty nondescript. when i was younger i was told i was pretty but i didn't think i looked anything much, just a blank face. now i've been on various medications for years and i've put on far too much weight i look even more bland.

but that's how i like it.

aloofiam wrote: From what I gather, I think that people who do see us tend to think that we always look pissed off or angry at something, but that's just our natural expression. From your pic, I could see how some might get that impression, but I'm sure when the pic was taken you were not pissed off. I know people always tell me that I look pissed off, or they ask me what's wrong just cause if I don't have a smile on my face then something must be wrong. Then I actually do get pissed off when they assume something that I'm not. Grrrrrr

I'm surprised you would reveal yourself though.

Yeah, i get that comment a lot too. All my life, people have told me that i look so awfully serious. But i think it would just be retarded to smile when there’s nothing to smile about.

PhoenixJay wrote:So I usually smile out the blue 'cause I'm thinking of something cute...then that results in crazy looks from people, lol. Which I find funny. It doesn't bother me as long as they don't ask what's so funny...but they always do ask. But I hardly ever tell them. I just say "nothing"....

Same here and nothing is indeed the best answer cause
- either i’m thinking about something cruel
- or i don’t feel like explaining (cause i’m lazy and they wouldn’t get it anyway)


about the picture thing
there are few pictures of me i actually like (sorry, paranoid me won’t put them up here )
I tend to look like a retard cause my smile’s fake or stoned cause my eyes are closed or only half-open.

Oh well, i’m not a fan of pictures anyway

I hate pictures, with a passion. Drugs don't help. They keep my pupils artificially dilated which usually ends up a as "stoned" look on pictures. I don't smile, I don't know how to smile. If I try it looks and feels fake. I mean I smile when something fun is happening to me and what not but I can't "smile on command" and have it look natural. Another nasty side effect of the dilated pupils is that I very often end up with closed eyes on pictures, which adds to the weirdness.

I try to bring a camera at social events. This way I can avoid talking to others and avoid pictures of me.

The only time i like a camera is when i am behind it, taking pictures. Otherwise i avoid it like a plague. I've also been told that i look serious, or depressed, or pissed off when in fact my mood is neutral really. So they tell me to smile, but all i can pull is a sarcastic smirk rather than a real smile. I think being schizoid is in part genetic and that's why we have similar facial expressions and hate cameras.

I have always been fascinated with pictures of myself. There is some strange distance or feeling about knowing that THAT is what I live in....that's the vessel people experience as being Kathleen. I don't know myself as an image, but as consciousness....so it is always odd and interesting to be reminded of what contains me.

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I like his beard

I tend to smile amongst other people when the situation requires it. But even alone I can smile, a faint smile. It's because I'm content with my life knowing that I have what I want for the moment.. solitude. But when I walk with my family I tend to be a step behind and then there is no smile any more. To be away from the socialization I send my mind elswhere *into a fantasy world where I feel at home* But when ever there is time for photographing I smile, but feels hollow to do so and it acctualy hurts inside... all I want to do is remove that fake disguisting smile that will be saved. BLÄH!! No, I hate to smile on photographs.

oh, new avatar on me, taken on May 20, tonight, sometime late at night.. perhaps between 01:00 and 02:30 - doing 24hour, not pm/am as I don't know the difference.
I rarely take pictures of my self and this one was just a coincident as the 3G cell phone-camera was initialized with the "wrong" camera when I wanted to see how good it worked under poor light conditions.

I do not like to have my picture taken. Lately I had to make one for a new student ID. I smiled because I was told to. I can make a nice smile if there is a need for such a thing. Still that doesn't mean I like that.