Hi guys I am new here and I have Schzoid Im sure

Hi guys I just want to say how I think I share this personality with you guys. Since a young kid I was a loner I never fit in and often found myself spending breaks alone going into early college years I would go out for lunch on my own. The thing is I always felt happy doing it. I have like one real friend if that, I am single but happy with that status. I feel and have felt since I was 14 I didn't want to settle down and have kids or a long-term relationship ever because I just want to be by myself and really do like my personal space. I think thats why I wouldn't want anyone to move in with me (when I get my own place). I am fine being with people mostly. However at times I feel anxious when going in a social enviroment on my own and leave soon after because I didn't feel comfortable. I think the emotional coldness rings true in me like I hardly ever smile or anything like have mostly a serious blank look on my face and like I rarely feel overly happy or overly sad though.

Also I wonder if I haven't got schzoid because many here sound like they are heavily drepressed, I was when I was in my youth but feel happier now then before. Maybe I am really odd I enjoy have no problem with being alone at all In my personal life I prefer it and not a big fan of serious relationships. But do you guys feel the same or do you hate being by yourself? When I am alone I never (rarely if ever) feel lonely just at times bord. Do you all feel the same?

if not a question of liking to be alone or not liking it.

its a matter of not asking the question because doing so is irelivent.

im indifferent. im ony weird to those who get loney

QuietTypeBachelor wrote:I feel and have felt since I was 14 I didn't want to settle down and have kids or a long-term relationship ever because I just want to be by myself and really do like my personal space.

I remember feeling similarly right around that age. I remember thinking "What? People expect me to find a girlfriend and ultimately get married?", and that it was an incredible burden on me that people would actually expect me to make that kind of commitment to another person. Before then, I guess I just thought (without thinking critically about it very much), that I was different and other people would be able to see that as clearly and easily as I do...even though looking back on it, it's obviously absurd.

Anyway, I can relate to a lot of what you said...you definitely sound like you might be schizoid. To answer your question, I guess I wouldn't say I love being alone. I'm not altogether sure I'm even capable of feeling emotions like "love" and "happiness" in the same way that most people do. But for me, when I am alone, I feel like I'm at peace, and it's all I've ever really wanted to get out of life - to be able to remain in that peaceful state forever.

AC

i too can relate to that, i have always thought the idea of having to share myself with somebody else on a regular basis was just horrible. i value my time with me far too highly. if i go out for lunch i prefer to go alone, maybe take a book. the idea of settling with someone just doesn't fit my life. in fact, i always think they'd end up depending on me: in my youth i had 2 relationships, both short, in which the boy decided to become besotted and dependent and i never want that to happen again. even back then the idea of relationships bothered me but because everyone expected it of me i did it (i was very young) and went against everything i felt. never again. ergo, kids are out too, because they'd be even more dependent.

i don't believe in a thing called love (to paraphrase that awful song) - i can see connections between other people, but i don't experience them. i can see that my brothers and my parents have this connection and i suppose they would call it love but i don't feel it, i don't understand it and as far as i'm concerned, it doesn't exist.

as for happiness, now my bipolar's stabled out (2 years and counting) i am relatively content, in my lonerish state. i wouldn't say happy, although i would say happier than before, but i am content, most of the time. the more i get to be alone, the more contented i feel.

When I was very young, I was sad a lot. Then, as I matured, I went to feeling nothing. At times I felt myself longing for times when I was more emotional just so I could feel something deep. I don't feel like I'm cold, just emotionally numb. My psychiatrist refered to this as anhedonia.
I too like being alone. There are a few specific types of people whose company I enjoy. I'm not an extreme schizoid. Sometimes I chose to socialize with others. But, I'm very choosy as to whom I allow into my fragile world.

i would have to say i enjoy the company of others as much as i enjoy my own. the the quaks cant seem to understand the reason why scizoids prefer being alone over being with people

this is because we are weird to people. they make fun of us. call us nerds, or creepy. i myself dont have this problem because im black and like ganster music. but the acting is just so fake to me. its annoying. i can only do it for so long

so if given the choice to be around morons or be alone we choose to be alone


truth is if people were not morons and assholes we have no quralls.

once again it doesnt matter.

dogtanian wrote:i don't believe in a thing called love (to paraphrase that awful song) - i can see connections between other people, but i don't experience them. i can see that my brothers and my parents have this connection and i suppose they would call it love but i don't feel it, i don't understand it and as far as i'm concerned, it doesn't exist.

When I was younger, I used to insist that love doesn't exist, that people who think it does are delusional, and that society invented the concept in an effort to add excitement and meaning to our lives. Of course my view did not go over too well with people I talked to. Now, while there is no doubt in my mind that the concept is hugely glorified, I am convinced that other people really are feeling something genuine and different towards each other which they call love.

There are many definitions of love. Not all of them are correct. The one truest test of true love is self-sacrifice. Love is what drives someone to run into a burning building to save a trapped loved-one. Or, donating a kidney to a friend or relative.
Of course, love doesn't have to be that dramatic. It could be something as simple as sharing your lunch. The point is, if you are not willing to give of yourself, you don't truly love that person.

Acid Crystal wrote:When I was younger, I used to insist that love doesn't exist, that people who think it does are delusional, and that society invented the concept in an effort to add excitement and meaning to our lives. Of course my view did not go over too well with people I talked to. Now, while there is no doubt in my mind that the concept is hugely glorified, I am convinced that other people really are feeling something genuine and different towards each other which they call love.

that's pretty much how i see it too. when i was younger, i also believed it was a social construct to contain people in easy to manage units, and also to be something someone could believe in to excuse things or justify things, as well as give some kind of excitement.

like you, now i see that other people feel things for eachother which they would define as love, however i have never felt this thing, and i am sure i never will (which is fine by me). i have a similar view on religion: other people can believe what they like, really, so long as they don't expect me to believe in it too. it's another glorified social control instrument and i can't and won't play along.

layered: i can't really imagine doing that kind of sacrifice. when i was a kid, if my brother and i wanted the same biscuit, i could give it up but that was because he was younger and would cry. you know that old question "if your house were on first what would be the first thing you'd save?" so many people say their family or their dog or whatever, i say my records, and my computer.

The concept of love goes way beyond the sappy, warm & fuzzy definition society has assigned it. Love is vital to species preservation. Love is the way in which our species forms those bonds between parents/siblings, husbands/wives, citizens/countries, etc. that will unsure the propogation of humankind. I believe love is something that is genetically encoded into us (unless your schizoid, in which case the "love gene" is recessive).