Indifference to everything.

Well I just played through the walking dead series season two finale from telltale without feeling a thing, that says enough.

Anyway, I think what you all described is just the typical schizoid? It's called a disorder for a reason.

Well, that's better than, say, "respondance to everything" or some other equally insane bullsh1t.

Yeah I can relate to the OP a lot, too, like many others here. Indifference is quite a nifty mechanism in our brains I guess. Proposing that it is indifference that fuelled your SPD seems similar to the question of what was there before, the hen or the egg.

Indifference in my opinion can be seen as a source to create a more content life. Since suffering is eliminated along with overbearing happiness or lust in theory. Yet, feeling content is not the norm, generally speaking. However, I feel that indifference is a good thing. It complicates human relationships, but it can also create room for insight and development of the mind, since emotions are dulled out. Guess it depends on the perspective.

Dezzi wrote:Yeah I can relate to the OP a lot, too, like many others here. Indifference is quite a nifty mechanism in our brains I guess. Proposing that it is indifference that fuelled your SPD seems similar to the question of what was there before, the hen or the egg.

Indifference in my opinion can be seen as a source to create a more content life. Since suffering is eliminated along with overbearing happiness or lust in theory. Yet, feeling content is not the norm, generally speaking. However, I feel that indifference is a good thing. It complicates human relationships, but it can also create room for insight and development of the mind, since emotions are dulled out. Guess it depends on the perspective.

I can't imagine what kind of indifference this is. All I experience is 24/7 dullness. It's not just indifference but a painful kind of disconnection from everything. In my head I repeat the words "I'm bored" perhaps hundreds of times a day, no matter what happens. It's a cosmic joke and I can't imagine what development could come of it. It feels like the complete opposite of any development, and that's why it sucks.

nprkntlny wrote:I can't imagine what kind of indifference this is. All I experience is 24/7 dullness. It's not just indifference but a painful kind of disconnection from everything. In my head I repeat the words "I'm bored" perhaps hundreds of times a day, no matter what happens. It's a cosmic joke and I can't imagine what development could come of it. It feels like the complete opposite of any development, and that's why it sucks.

that reminds of the moments when i'm tired and that feeling is clear and vivid (and no mystery, since i know i'm tired), when i'm reading something i'm supposed to be paying attention to and all i can hear inside my head is literally just "blah blah blah". it makes me wonder if that chronic feeling of dullness can be interpreted in terms of tiredness, and if it's helpful to think of it as such (then the obvious question of course is "tired of/from what exactly?")

Well in alignment with the various theories, schizoids are just tired of the pain of emotions... tired of being overwhelmed I guess. Which then leads to a feedback loop of feeling overwhelmed by indifference and being tired of that. From there it's just a spiral down into more and more indifference. Kind of ironic.

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