what's on your mind? (off-topic thread)

I saw someone I haven't seen in 5 or 6 years today. It was as though she was still upset that-- I don't know-- We didn't try? So I made a joke about it by mentioning we never did go on that date and she said "I couldn't just wait forever" which felt kinda intense considering we were just teenagers and only really had a playful interest.

Maybe she didn't like that I did what I always do and just pretended as though there was no gap and we were picking up where we left off. I think that's the issue with emotional distance. I don't automatically get in synch with the other person. I could feel her and I played with it but I think the issue is she felt me too and that I was exactly where I had been and we hadn't done the same. It was weird.

Secretly part of me thought "yeah, you should have waited." Maybe it was more like "I bet you wish you had." She was conflicted. The whole thing was interesting to experience

This aptly describes the emptiness I feel since finishing my latest addiction. There were 27 episodes so I guess it is akin to a relationship ( several in fact ) ending.

I still miss Walter White.

First interview as an interviewee in a long time. Whew.

So my cat is dying. Cancer.

I haven't put her down yet, as she's still having some quality of life, but it won't be long.

As I was telling Holodeck, this morning I cried. Real tears. First time since my last cat died.

It wasn't especially cathartic, just something I felt I needed to do. It was actually a bit difficult. I'd been feeling that it was coming, but it was an effort. Sort of like emotional constipation.

I've never cried over the death of a person. Not even as a child. I know schizoids are supposed to have a limited emotional response, but what are the distinctions here? People and pets are different, but emotions are emotions, right?

Oblivion wrote:So my cat is dying. Cancer.

I haven't put her down yet, as she's still having some quality of life, but it won't be long.

As I was telling Holodeck, this morning I cried. Real tears. First time since my last cat died.

It wasn't especially cathartic, just something I felt I needed to do. It was actually a bit difficult. I'd been feeling that it was coming, but it was an effort. Sort of like emotional constipation.

I've never cried over the death of a person. Not even as a child. I know schizoids are supposed to have a limited emotional response, but what are the distinctions here? People and pets are different, but emotions are emotions, right?

First off, I'm sorry to hear that, hon. Give her lots of love.


Second of all, I've only ever one time cried over a person's death. It's not about people being more important than animals, it's about your attachment to them. I've known plenty of people that died, but like I said, only ever cried once. Both times I had to put a pet down, I bawled like a baby. I had raised them both since they were practically born up until their deaths. My one aunt died suddenly from a stroke, and I was all "eh" and went about my day.

Thanks, Tyler.

I agree about the attachment thing. Plus I'm too tired to bother trying to decipher people's hidden agendas. They play games whether they mean to or not; it's ingrained. I don't understand these games, or all the rules of social discourse. It seems I'm always too blunt or not nearly forthcoming enough. I can find no happy medium.

Besides, animals are cuter.

I'm sorry, Oblivion

Oblivion wrote:
I've never cried over the death of a person. Not even as a child.

Do you think children usually cry for the death of a person?

Thanks Philonoe.

I think by a certain age they would. Like six or seven? I don't know, I know nothing about kids.

Oblivion wrote:So my cat is dying. Cancer.

I haven't put her down yet, as she's still having some quality of life, but it won't be long.

I'm sorry, Oblivion. She knows that you love her.