what's on your mind? (off-topic thread)

Anyone familiar with the feeling that you're not supposed to be in a certain place?

Sometimes, while I'm outside my apartment in places like my class and even the bus station, I begin to have an uncomfortable feeling that I'm not supposed to be there, something that I would describe as feeling "not home". For example, during my classes, I can feel that I'm "foreign" to this place.
To deal with this feeling, and I know it may sound a bit stupid, but usually, I tell myself that those feelings "weakening" me and it's not something I want - to be weak. After that, I just try to focus on the lesson and the feeling eventually fades away.

Note: When I wrote that I don't want to be weak, I'm not talking about appearing weak to others, but rather to myself. Those feelings do not affect my already not unwelcoming appearance.
Also, I'm completely aware of my surroundings.

Do you have any clues of what it can be? Should I talk to my psychologist about it?

I have that feeling but I usually attribute it as part of my social anxiety.

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Season 4 is nice. I accidentally watched it before the first seasons.
Anyway, enjoy!

xcagedsilhouttex wrote:I have that feeling but I usually attribute it as part of my social anxiety.

Sounds like something social anxiety can cause, but I don't think I have anxiety, or at least my psychologist told me so. He can be wrong, but I personally can't relate to the symptoms anyway.

Is there's anything that can trigger that feeling? something more specific.

Being made to smile over simple things and little gestures. Carried me the whole day

I’m generally pretty unresponsive but feminine essence even when I’m not lusting after it gives me energy and I can feel it’s effects long after it’s shared with me. We were talking about anima a while ago on the troll forum and I wondered whether it’s related. I’m not convinced it’s sexual, though that turns it up a level again

naps wrote:Then I will binge watch Better Call Saul season 4

Whoa wait, season 4?

I guess I know what I'll be doing this weekend.

NPC wrote:I can feel that I'm "foreign" to this place.

I think that's pretty much inevitable when you don't share basic values with people around you.

emillionth wrote:

NPC wrote:I can feel that I'm "foreign" to this place.

I think that's pretty much inevitable when you don't share basic values with people around you.

I haven't given up on authenticity with those around me. I've noticed that as I grow, my circle is in flux. Those that choose to stick around find themselves warped by my own values. I'm not sure if it's the best thing for me though because I don't really know what my own values are. Other people just assume I must know because I'm so stubborn.

It's like this funny clip I saw of this British show.

"It's not the blind leading the blind, it's the blind, blinding the sighted."

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NPC wrote:I can feel that I'm "foreign" to this place.

I think that's pretty much inevitable when you don't share basic values with people around you.[/quote]

Doesn't it require to feel uncomfortable with my own values or with the idea that the people surrounding me have different values?
I understand that the way I place my values is different from how my classmates place them, but I don't care about it on an emotional level. When it comes to society-related or person-to-person activities, depends on the situation, I would care about others values as they benefit me.
But again, my understanding of others values and eventually their emotions don't come from emotions. I'm not mad because people don't share my values, I'm not sad because I don't have the same values as they do - It simply doesn't play a rule that can cause such feeling.

Though it might actually be it, Maybe I just don't want to be part of a community. But it doesn't explain why I can feel this way in a less community-like environment, places like the bus station.
Also, I didn't mention it before, but this feeling is not foreign to me. I felt this way before I went to high-school and sometimes I get flashbacks of the moments I had this feeling when I was in kindergarten and elementary school.

Teeth, trickles and my sanity

It’s all coming off and that’s okay. I just need to get it out of the way

-- Fri Nov 23, 2018 9:20 pm --

I get captured in a kind of mindless trance. I feel urge or desire and don’t have a wall up for it. Even when I was sectioned and when I could stare at a wall all day and behave there’s a switch that flicks and I don’t have a reply to it. Like even now I’m almost fighting it but it’s already happening and I don’t have a way to bring it from the front