Smiling to other?

Same here but sometimes I smile with no reason when i'm with people

my smiles are almost always laughs, i mean, i smile when there was sth funny, but not funny enough (or i'm just doing a good job repressing myself) to actually laugh. smiling out of politeness or just showing you're a decent human being doesn't occur too often, that's more of a secret schizoid thing possibly

also, i have a very friendly & warm smile, & i don't wanna give any false impressions like i'm outgoing & enjoy people's company

I tried but it's exhausting and I only smile to really funny jokes or when im talking to my bf on internet

People say i am very serious, Idk why, they are serious too

I do smile a lot,at friends, at random strangers. It's somewhat calculated, but I think it feels natural to others, that I'm just a friendly, nice person. And I guess to some extent that is true, it's not natural though, or automatic, like it might be with some people.

That being said, people without SPD can be stony, or at least calculated with their smiles too. I am a fairly good face reader.

I smile at people to blend in. I also laugh at jokes though I don't understand them , nor care to do so. My problems comes from reacting in situations where empathy is needed, actually understanding what the other people feel, so I just end up doing something completely inappropriate and insensitive. Not so great for maintaining a positive image, good for pushing people away. Both have it's merits I suppose.

I smile in order to not have people ask questions like "whats wrong with you?" or "cheer up", which is what I get most of time if I'm in my default facial expression. I also smile genuinely at certain things/situations, I may briefly smile at jokes and I may laugh genuinely if its a funny joke, but I don't fake a laugh/smile at jokes I don't find funny...except when I'm being sarcastic.

The whole "lack of affect" thing always gets me. Maybe because I'm so hyper-expressive with others. I smile big, throw up my eyebrows, gesture when I talk? So many of the resources around szpd would leave someone with the impression we're all supposed to be Vulcans, when I'm more like a silent movie actor. All eyes and hands.

That's not to say this feels natural to me or isn't exhausting. Of course it is. I just had some frightening encounters growing up where my "true" demeanor was taken for... confrontational? Particularly with strange men and neurotic female relatives.

Where a stoic man is more acceptable and likely to be left alone, I think szpd women who present similarly can expect an experience closer to mine, and with it comes a degree of actual physical danger. I would assume more are covert/masked for this reason.

Honestly, I've been touched or followed on the street fewer times by smiling and laughing off remarks than I have staring someone down or flat-out ignoring them. Either situation is unfavorable and frightening, but one gets me home a lot faster.