So I guess I'm not alone

hi lisa here ..
as drew said we met via the net, i was in the midst of a sticky divorce and his honesty on the chat site, amid all the usual b#s on there really stood out and got my attention. I started talking to him via msm and within a few months i had flown over to meet him. But i have to say it was his honesty about everything and his black and white way of looking at things that appealed . I guess i was used to that cut and dry attitude from the kids i taught and its not something you find in adults, so just the fact that he was himself with no false pretenses was refreshing. Anyway after a few months i left teaching in england and moved over here and we got married just over a year ago. Ill not say its a bed of roses all the time but im prepared to adapt and so is drew . Ive def toughened up since being with him, and i try to remember that his mood swings are nothing personal, as long as i dont lose sight of that then things are good

lisaterry wrote: the only thing i ever wanted was to live in a cabin away from people. i have wanted that since i was a kid.

wow, that is has been my dream too, and for as long as I can remember. When my mom heres me say that she says I sound just like her dad. My mom's dad (my grandpa, who unfortunately I never got to meet) had a cabin on a lake in the middle of nowhere; he would go there has often as he could to just be alone. I wish I would have known him because my mom always says I'm just like he was.

the thing that keeps me going most of the time is my spiritual beliefs. i believe in jesus but i am not christian. i believe in a god or a higher power but i believe that he is neutral.

My spiritual beliefs is what keeps me going too, but I'm by far not a religious person. I believe in a higher power/higher energy, and that source is what I consider god to be, but I have a hard time believing in jesus and religion or the words of the bible becuase too many things just don't make sense. I tend to base my beliefs on scientific fact and what science can't answer I use my best logical reasoning to come up with answers that make the most sense to me. I try to make sense of it all by learning about the universe and quantum physics, and the more I learn the more I'm amazed about the true nature of reality. I really think physisists are on to something with M-theory. As hard as that is to grasp though, it seems like it is the most logical way to describe our universe and it's existance and how we came to be. Unfortunately I don't think M-theory will ever be proven. That's were my spiritual beliefs take over.

the best advice i can give you is to adopt an i dont give a $#%^ attitude

Oh yeah, I developed that attitude long ago. Why should I care; what ever happens is going to happen and it is out my control; I've accepted this, becuase I know in the end when I'm dead none of it will have mattered anyway. It's funny to watch other people react and get all upset if their favorite football team looses, likes it's the end of the world or something; or they win and get all excited. Who ######6 cares. The way I see it, there's no reason to get excited or upset about anything because in the end, what does it matter anyway. The only thing that matters is how I feel deep inside.

and be happy and content with what you have.

That's all I could ever hope to be.

just bear in mind that im a bit weird

You are definately not weird, becuase if you are that would make me weird seeing how we are so much alike. Schizoids aren't weird, everyone else is weird.

I'm glad you've found this site drew, I haven't connected with anyone for a long time. I will definately keep in touch with you through email. Just not now though, cause I'm at work, and well, I guess I should actually do some work.