I think I am Schizoid, what do you think?

Okay, first off I think I may be schizoid(not the personality disorder, because I am only 15) also, when I was a kid I was diagnoised with OCD, and I got that treated

I don't want any close relationships, I am always longing to be alone, I am often pushing my family out of the house so I can be alone, they went away for a week, and I was in heaven.
I always choose solitary activities, it's easier to work that way, and i can make my own decisions.
I am very independent, and I need my space.
When people want to become my friends I tell them that I dont want them to hang around with me, because they would always be coming over, there is this one girl who comes over almost every day, she just can't take a hint...so I usually come off as rude, apparently I made her cry and she had a long talk with my mom, which only made me more pissed at her.
I am not really interested in sexual activity, which I find kind of odd because almost everyone in my grade and in two of the grades behind me have "done it"
Life is dull to me, I mean I really don't see much point of it, its empty.
I do well in school but no one knows because I never join anything or do any leadership things, and I prefer to stay low
My parents tell me I show emotional coldness.
I don't have anything that I enjoy, besides reading, but that comes and goes...
I love fantasy, I am probably obsessed, and I do belive there are aliens out there.
I am pretty parinoid, I am always anxious because partly I think people are talking bad about me, and I start to ask questions and they start laughing...and go talk somewhere else...about me probably...I am also always thinking someone is spying on me, like maybe they are looking through my window or have installed something in my room...and I don't trus my family at all when it comes to cooking, I do all my own cooking and stuff
I think I am better than everybody else...but at the same time, I think I am lower than everybody else...I can't explain it...but I don't think I am thinking like a normal person would in this situation...
Another thing is, I have trouble getting my thoughts across, I know it and i try to explain it, but people usually don't get it, and I have to really concentrate on how to make them understand me (I am not mentally retarded...I can't get it out...but its not like mental retardation...see I can't explain it)

alot of what you say is like me, except i have a longing to be with people, to some degree. like i don't want to feel so lonely, but i just can't make any connections with people. the people that are in my life, i don't feel anything for them. i know what you men about feeling retarded. i can't express myself because i'm so narcistic that the most of my thoughts stay in my head and what comes out doesn't make sence to anyone but me.

I think you shouldn't be so quick to start labeling. Personality D.O.s take years to develop, decades, or at least until age 18. You still have time to work on these behaviors and feelings. Don't waste it discussing your life with people on this board, people that don't know you or care about you. Tell your parents what's going on.

Dear Darkpride,

Much of what you say makes perfect sense in relation to a schizoid diagnosis. At this point, I have to completely disagree with Pithyladies comments on the presupposed longterm development of SPD. This 'mendacious hopefulness' is quite typical in modern psychiatry beauraucracy, where there is a fear to 'label' etc. The fact is, children and adolescents DO exhibit schizoid (and related) traits, and most often, the DO develop into full blown SPD. Though the description 'full blown' is erroneous, as there are various avenues for aeteological expression.

The sensations of paranoia etc, are not uncommon to SPD, nor is narcissism, as exhibited by Spacemonkey. These traits, though probably congenital (this is a loose speculation made for the sake of good methodology), are incidentally exacerbated by the common difficulties in everyday social life.

In partial agreement with Pithylady, do speak to your parents, do seek a therapist who has experience with SPD, Autisms, and other personality disorders. That you have discovered your problem at a young age gives scope for wider development, healthier and more adaptive social behavioural traits. In total disagreement with Pithylady, you are not wasting your life by talking with people in this forum etc. First of all, people here do care a little - not a lot - but will empathise (strange word in this domain) with you due to their own predispositions. By discussing your predispositions, and cathecting your difficulties via forum discussion that doesn't require the closeness you fear and abhor - you are making a great step towards finding your own niche, becoming more adaptive (first of all, know the problem, second, discuss it, third, attempt feasible (and not unrealistic) resolve. Resolution, not revolution), and permitting the forum to be a partial aid to overriding the difficulties you have.

Feel free to email me:

j.walter1@btinternet.com

Brian

Don't talk to your parents because parents are dumb. There's no way you ever want to tell anything major to people who can legally have that much control over your life. The best thing to do is just get away from your parents. But if you can't do that, then seriously don't tell them about anything. The main thing you want to do with parents is keep them away from information so they can't do as much to you.

your friend,

Anna D

Anna D wrote:Don't talk to your parents because parents are dumb. There's no way you ever want to tell anything major to people who can legally have that much control over your life. The best thing to do is just get away from your parents. But if you can't do that, then seriously don't tell them about anything. The main thing you want to do with parents is keep them away from information so they can't do as much to you.

your friend,

Anna D

Uhhhhh, wrong! Are you 12 or something?

You should go to your parents for help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't ever let anyone talk you into not sharing with family. What you he 15 y/o needs, is a good Christian counselor and to but a good bible and learn what God has to say. He has a plan for your life. If most of your friends are sexually active, this is WRONG. Don't go with the crowd. Pray and learn about the bible, only Jesus Christ can set you free. If you have a disorder, ok, then work on a solution with your parents, and counselor, and GOD, OUR Almighty counselor. Try it, your life will change.
From a mom, who has lived!

If you were "schizoid" you wouldn't give a $#%^ if someone labels you that.

DarkPride, you do sound like you may be schizoid but 15 really is too early to make a defitive diagnosis of S.P.D. If you feel that have this condition then there is absolutely no harm in talking to your parents about it or a school counsellor.
First though do your research, don`t just say "I think I`m crazy" as that rarely helps . Instead get some books and show them what it is you are talking about. Your parents will want to help you if they can but you need to discuss with them how they can help.
School is tough for all schizoids, so take any help you can get.