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Hello

It has been a year since I was diagnosed with SPD and avoidant PD and I have been struggling to find resources that will help me understand how it has impacted my life up until now, as well as the effect (or is it affect? I can never remember) on my current day to day experience. I am a male in my mid fifties and, from the outside, I have led a (conventional) successful life: married with a child, post graduate educated, career etc... But something has always been amiss.

The SPD (and / or avoidant PD) explains a lot of the difficulties I have had with interpersonal relationships and the frustration felt by my loved ones towards my behavior. The frustrations of others around me is getting worse of late and I have been exhibiting behaviors that seem designed to force a wedge between relationships and drive people further away. As I mentioned, I am recently diagnosed SPD and I am now looking at my behavior from the standpoint of schzoid - If you were to ask me, I absolutely do not want to act like this but am I destined to push people away and break up long term relationships as a consequence of my personality disorder? are there strategies I can employ to combat the destructive behavior?

Any advice would be welcome

Thanks

DMO