High School Life.

Hello, I made this account awhile ago but I've decided to start using it.

Anyway, out of curiosity how was high school for any of you? Did you often get in trouble? Were you avoided? Or invisible..

Personally, I never got in any major trouble except for detention or ISS for dress code violation. I would have missing assignments, half- way finished work, or not do work at all. I would often get sent to sit in the hallway for not paying attention or to the office. I would skip school every so often. I failed a couple of courses but made up for it in summer school. I graduated though & now do photography & occasionally do gigs for some extra cash. I think high school sucked & it was a waste of time. Your thoughts or opinions, yes.

Cricky, I was invisible. Barely worked, got through on my "native intelligence," or blind luck if you prefer! I hardly remember my time at school, apart from mostly not understanding why we were learning what we were learning. I was very quiet, but not exactly shy. I was pretty much left alone, alike the potted plant in the corner.

I hadn't learned how to think yet, I wasn't really self-aware. Just reactionary. It's a fascinating concept, not being truly self aware, or being unable to think.

I was a little more active at college, and while still mostly invisible, I was very active at university. Ran two large societies and got really involved with the departments.

It was pretty swell actually. I didn't get that bad until the last year. I got decent enough grades. I had friends, but I definitely tried to keep a small circle. I guess I was pretty well liked the first year, then Sophomore year I got expelled because on a technicality I had a weapon on school grounds. Best year of my high school career. Got to chill at home all day listening to music, rarely saw friends, had 6 hours of school through 1 on 1 tutoring with multiple tutors (which is a lot better than you'd think). The trips to court, therapy and multiple psychological evaluations were a pain though, but it wasn't kept on my record.

But I digress, after that a number of people avoided me, a few people respected me. Two of my close friends lost it and got arrested for stealing a chemical from the lab for an explosive, and also one of them mentioned my name while his friend recorded him talking about shooting up the school, so I stopped talking to them.

Never got a detention besides a 10 minute one for cracking a joke about my friend in class. Never failed any classes, although my grades did drop pretty low at points. I did half-finish my work a lot the first year, but the intense scrutinization of tutoring fixed that habit.

I don't remember much of it, but from what I do recall it was a fairly miserable/confusing time for me. I was completely alienated from everyone, including my family. I had nothing but contempt for the system because I didn't know why I was being taught what I was. I never did any homework as such I was always in detention. I just tried to keep to myself which never worked, since I was always a target for bullies. Never really knew why, but I guess I had some kind of reputation for being weird and stupid or something. My high school was fairly brutal though, lots of fighting/bullying and the teachers played us off against each other too. I was eventually expelled at the end of yr 11. They cited my academic record, but I remember the housemaster told me it was because they were worried I'd bring the school's average down with my HSC grades.

I finished high school in a kind of "tech college" about 7 years later, from which I gained access to uni. Now I have two degrees with honours. Not that I can throw it in anyone's face since I never kept in contact with anyone from my school days (or that I would be bothered even if I could), but it's nice to know that it was the system that failed to properly educate me, instead of my own ineptitude being the problem. I firmly believe that had I received proper assistance/attention that I would be light-years ahead of where I am now, which is a bit of a shame.

It really sucked. I won't say it was particularly pointless, because in my opinion 99% of all schooling is pointless anyway. I skipped school a lot (in some classes I was absent most days). I was extremely bored most of the time, and my anxiety levels were constantly through the roof.

I knew I had nothing to identify with and I hated what people seemed to identify me with, so I was desperate for something to hang on to, and I thought I needed to be part of some group (and for practical reasons, I think I actually did need it). I did have a group of friends, and they weren't all bad, but overall they didn't treat me very well, probably because I didn't understand them and they didn't understand me.

I also had a "group of enemies" who I misguidedly tried to socialize with during the first year. They liked to subtly but constantly bully me (specifically me). Judging by the way they treated me when they weren't trying to be bullies, I don't think they even understood how much they bothered me.

I also had my adolescent sex drive at work and had very bad "attacks of infatuation" which I had no idea what to do about. Combined with my lack of social ability and lack of knowledge of what teenage flings or couples even were about (or total disinterest in the parts that I knew about, except for the very act of sex), this made me utterly miserable.

So, yes, it really sucked.

I had missed allot of classes. I had friends that I was talking with in school but I didn't socialize much outside of it. I did socialize much more in PS but that was because I have friends that were living close to me, and that were visiting me, or that wanted me to go with them somewhere. I was apathetic about staying at home or going out.

anagram wrote:I also had my adolescent sex drive at work and had very bad "attacks of infatuation" which I had no idea what to do about. Combined with my lack of social ability and lack of knowledge of what teenage flings or couples even were about (or total disinterest in the parts that I knew about, except for the very act of sex), this made me utterly miserable.

So, yes, it really sucked.

I was never a teenager in that sense. I was just apathetic, and being teenager didn't change that I didn't notice any changes in my psychology or my drives. My libido was small, and it was a physiological need that was triggered by the need to remove fluid not by any outside factors, and I was anhedonic about it.

Polis wrote:I was never a teenager in that sense. I was just apathetic, and being teenager didn't change that I didn't notice any changes in my psychology or my drives. My libido was small, and it was a physiological need that was triggered by the need to remove fluid not by any outside factors, and I was anhedonic about it.

This is true for me too. I barely understood sex when I was a teenager. I didn't care, it was just another thing to learn about at school, like the 2nd World War or French.

I was quiet as well, but I did have erratic moments spontaneously. Like in the 10th grade this one kid that I would I guess you could I bullied? I don't know but I would trip him & push him, knock his books down, scribble on his work, & yeah immature stuff but it wasn't like I didn't like him i just did it. One day I guess he was feed up because he cussed me out. I apologized though & moved on. Never talked to him again.

I did have a close knit of friends ( consisting of around 5 people) One person in particular my childhood friend whom is the complete opposite of me. We some kinda way clicked & we still are friends til this day. I used to dye my hair weird colors like blue & green. I still dye my hair but not like that or whatever. I did enjoy certain things about school like the film clubs, & orchestra.

Invisible, but also periods where I was extremely popular due to excessive "secret schizoid" behavior.

Hated the school and everyone in it. Like, a lot. I think I was mostly invisible, though. About when high school started is when my introversion kicked into overdrive. I eventually ended up isolating myself from everyone and everything - save one internet-friend I 'met' on a baseball forum. And after so long, the anxiety, anhedonia and depression I was experiencing overwhelmed me; it took my mind under crevices of reality that were completely unknown hitherto. Tried to kill myself multiple times, got into self-mutilation (my body shall forever thank me) and had a few... "freakouts," shall we say... they were like maniac panic attacks. Thankfully, I managed to get through it, but I still live with the consequences every d-amn day. I still hate pretty much everyone and everything, as well as going places and doing things, but I suppose I've gotten wiser and somehow learned to better cope... Anyway, feels like time to shut up. So I will. Starting... Now!