How have others reacted?

Yeah I'm going to agree with the general consensus that A, it was foolish and B, it is hard for people to understand the schizoid mindset. I'm pretty lucky that the two I told aren't really gossipy kind of people. I think I'm going to be able to play it off as "just introverted lol jokes guys I was high as the clouds." Thank goodness for my most excellent mask for being so realistic. Keeping me safe like always.

Also, I think if somebody is a successful covert schizoid most people would tend to believe that somebody was just depressed/introverted/blowing things out of proportion rather than to fully accept that they are schizoid.

Nick_J wrote:Absolutely not. People are ignorant and foolish, usually dismissing what they don't understand. Mental illness gets a pretty bad rap in general, and that's for major things like clinical depression and schizophrenia.

Comparatively minor or difficult to understand issues like ours will get far less understanding and acceptance, and that's without the argument surrounding personality disorders in general. Heck my mother is a mental health nurse and I wouldn't tell her [our relationship is abysmal, but I wouldn't tell her anyway.] Then again, the person I trust most is my dad but I only told him about my army ambitions because circumstances forced me to. My siblings didn't and don't know, even since I've abandoned my application.

I can see no advantage and a huge potential problem telling people. Even if you trust someone not to gossip, it takes 20 seconds to wikipedia SPD and just as long to conclude that you are 'faking" your friendship. SPD takes a long time to understand and appreciate, if I was to tell someone it would have to be someone I trusted far more than I have ever trusted someone else. Possibly if I ever found a partner, but I doubt it.

Woah. I too have a terrible relationship with my mother who is a mental health nurse and I'm going to try join the army (as a psychologist ) soon, mainly for the sweet paycheck. Tell me, do you also have a cat called lilly which is the most adorable thing ever? If so I believe you've bodysnatched me and I'd like it back.

mmm... I´ve received very different reactions to this.
When I was young and trusted people more and had higher standards for them, It didn´t work out well, so decided to never hold back too many things, ironically, to protect myself, so it means little to nothing to me if somebody (in that time, bullied me) makes fun of my private issues, share a stupid opinion (oh! how they need to share it!) or betrays my trust by telling everybody my things. It works for me, when someone says something that "should bother" me, I laugh back or just stare at them with a blank face and leave, doesn´t bother me, so they leave me alone.

With this in mind, many people around know about it, usually they don´t care. My parents don´t even know what it really is about, the concept that i´m damaged it´s pretty comfortable for them and don´t dig deeper.
Some people, terrified say: you´re crazy! and I answer: yup (hahaha), others think I´m seeking attention, that i´m depressed, a liar... It´s funny how being honest puts you so far away from people, but mostly it is very entertaining and simple for me, the stupid and scared will go away by themselves, good riddance. Few people stay, they don´t mind or that at some extent understand (extremely rare), and that´s great for me.

Fun fact: one person, that reacted by telling me with disapproval that I was crazy, in the same night (we were doing some homework), went to sleep before me, and a couple of hours afterwards came to me with a knife, and told me she was going to kill her mother next room.... ok.

Vreedzame wrote:Woah. I too have a terrible relationship with my mother who is a mental health nurse and I'm going to try join the army (as a psychologist ) soon, mainly for the sweet paycheck. Tell me, do you also have a cat called lilly which is the most adorable thing ever? If so I believe you've bodysnatched me and I'd like it back.

I have a cat called Spike who is the laziest thing ever? Had a sister-cat called Fe-fe who was hit by a car a few years ago, but no Lilly.

As for the army: If you want, try. However I found the social side and frathouse atmosphere impossible to deal with. I can help, but that's my view. The vast majority of both officers and soldiers are extroverted, alcohol drinking frat-boys who enjoy partying and dick-waving contests. I don't.

Nick_J wrote:I have a cat called Spike who is the laziest thing ever? Had a sister-cat called Fe-fe who was hit by a car a few years ago, but no Lilly.

As for the army: If you want, try. However I found the social side and frathouse atmosphere impossible to deal with. I can help, but that's my view. The vast majority of both officers and soldiers are extroverted, alcohol drinking frat-boys who enjoy partying and dick-waving contests. I don't.

Close enough.

Yeah I'm not really looking forward to the whole "army" side of the army. I dislike how you are supposed to march around/follow strict orders etc. It's far too restrictive for me, and I really don't see the point. That said, I'm willing to put up with it simply because of that sweet sweet paycheck. If I can just work the 3 year minimum and get out I will be set money wise for all my travelling needs.

Vreedzame wrote:

Nick_J wrote:
Close enough.

Yeah I'm not really looking forward to the whole "army" side of the army. I dislike how you are supposed to march around/follow strict orders etc. It's far too restrictive for me, and I really don't see the point. That said, I'm willing to put up with it simply because of that sweet sweet paycheck. If I can just work the 3 year minimum and get out I will be set money wise for all my travelling needs.

Well then, good luck to you! Biggest bit of advise I can give you for an army interview is start running now. Literally, get your arse up and go running. Get your 1.5 mile time down to sub 9 minutes and hold that for 2 miles total [6 minute mile for 2 miles] and you should be fine.

I made a pretty significant mistake during my prep: I was trying to lose weight at the time, so I was eating about 1500 calories a day. Result of which was losing about 4 stone+ but also that I lost most of my gains and my fitness didn't really improve. Make sure you eat right and train right.

I have. She was a girl from work who attempted to initiate a relationship with me, which I rejected on grounds I don't date people from work on principle, and we remained friends. Years later (last month in fact) we were drunk in a bar, and I decided to tell her I was schizoid, which amongst other things was responsible for us never being more than friends. She was understanding (she has some obvious anxiety/depression issues herself) and ended up being rather sympathetic as to both why I rejected her sexual advances as well as why I'm always so stoic, lacking stress, never date, etc. To her it seemed to make sense.

Ever since I told her she hasn't brought it up, probably for the reason outlined by Nick, that through her own research she probably thinks/knows that I fake all my friendships. But I think she's happier in the delusion given the stability someone with flat affect offers someone with emotional anxiety.

I will forever regret my decision to tell her, obviously since it happened whilst we were both drunk, I blame my highly impaired judgement. Being a covert schizoid means my life is majorly focused on fitting in, not coming out. It felt like a betrayal of everything I've built, and to this day I still don't know why I told her other than some archaic lizard-brained need to be known for what I am that I can't shake. I have no intention of telling anyone else.

I've told this to my only friend, and he was cool with it. The way he sees it, atleast I'm not harmful like some other "friends" can be.