rl wrote:You mention that you had 'voices in the head' - were you aware that they were imaginary, or did you believe they were real?
The voices have always come when alone and so I immediately recognized them as my own brain screwing with me. The voice "sounded" just like a normal voice though so I might have been in doubt if I had been in a public place.
rl wrote:Right now I think I have everything under control and dismiss any of my supposed delusions of people spying on me as just that. Is this what happened to you? Did the situation spiral out of control?
It started as lack of trust in other people, escalated to thoughts about them spying on me and talking about me behind my back and from there it spiraled to full-blown paranoia and completely out of control. And all the time I considered myself the only sane and rational person around.
rl wrote:What was the medication prescribed and is it only available by prescription? You say it has no effect on the PD - That I am a schizoid is not my worry. That I am turing schizophrenic certainly is! My delusions are currently only at work - never anywhere else - could you hear the voices everywhere or just in certain places or specific times?
The medication was Zyprexa (Olanzapin) which makes me fat and lazy, but now I'm switching to Abilify (Aripiprazol) which supposedly won't make me a fatso and perhaps it also will make me function better at work. And before you ask:They are both hideously expensive.
rl wrote:Im content as a unemotional nobody who fades into the background and have no desire to cure my 'schizoidness' as it were,...
Exactly the way I feel