Question? Is it me?

Does anybody with szoafft disorder bipolar type who never had hallucinations, have not worked for 10 years, are mostly bounded to your home, has no friends, is scared of people, like a real dread. And are suspicious about people that seem like they are up to somethi g, or are studying you or your moves? Are constantly under huge amounts of pain? And feel completly desperate and sared of ending in the gutter, homeless, and scared of the so called common people? Or is it just me? Anyone?

It's not you, trust me on that.