Looking for friends

Hullo my name is Sammy. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at age 17 but went crazy in my early age of being 16 and before that I was delusional at age 8, though it did not affect my lifestyle. Except when I wrote in cursive at school I thought the teacher would call the FBI if I did not dot my i's or cross my t's before finishing a word. At age 11 I used to talk to imaginary creatures, one specifically a mouse with wings. I started failing in school because I couldn't pay attention. I have been in and out of the mental hospital and have lost complete sanity when I was 23. I started taking Invega Sustenna injections because my visual hallucinations were taking control and I thought I was Adolf Hitler. I set things on fire trying to kill nazis who I believed were brainwashing me to be evil and tried to proclaim that I was the innocent one. I've attacked police men and family members. I've thrown away all the food in my house because I thought the nazis were poisoning my family. I thought everyone I had ever met in my life was a nazi. I have scars on my arm from when the voices told me to donate my blood or my friends would commit suicide. I joined Youtube to express myself for people who are looking for someone who is going through schizoaffective disorder or schizophrenia. My diagnosis was changed to schizoaffective disorder because of my poor mood management. I can feel very empty and blank and dead, to being overly hyper, to being overly quiet. I feel various moods at once. If you would like to be my friend that would make me happy.

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Hi Schado,
Sounds like you've had some really bad experiences. It's sad that you weren't put on medications earlier considering all that you've done and been through. I'm not sure how long I've been schizoaffective but my symptoms have always been mild at most. I guess the bipolar would be the worst of it, but nobody ever noticed or cared because of my introverted personality.

Feel free to PM me if you wish!