Trigger words?

This is my first post here, and I've tried to find something similar so I wouldn't have to bother you all, but I can't seem to find what I'm looking for.
Earlier this year I was diagmosed schizoaffective ( the depressed one.) I went off my meds a few months after the diagnosis as I didn't think I actually had anything going on up there. I figured it was a fluke. However I still experience moments of "trigger words," some threatening, some completely random. One person will say something like, "Its ######6 cold outside, I'm going to die!" And I'll instantly focus on "die." it will repeat I'm my mind, and I'll think I'm going to die, or I'm supposed to die.
Again, this can happen with random words too. Cheese, any variation of the word poop, Lysol or anything to do with cleaning. Reasons for these words in order; drugs, I pooped myself or my daughter did and I didn't notice so I'm a bad mother, I smell, I'm dirty, etc...

Other unrelated "symptoms,"
I'll think maybe I tried to kill someone, then while driving home someone will literally jog in front of me trying to make me kill them.
Coincidences in everything.
Having conversations with people and I'll zone out, until they say one of the trigger words, or call me a name and then I'll snap out of it.

Ideas? Similar experiences? I appreciate the read.

Hi, welcome to the forums.

This is something a lot of people who suffer from mental illness go through. Certain things will trigger them, sometimes words. Certain music triggers me I to mania, other things trigger me into psychosis,

The only thing I can really recommend is to get back in touch with your psychiatrist and ask them to help you. Not doing anything about it really isn't going to help.