First bipolar, now a new hypotesis

Hi all

I am 28 years old, from Norway and mentally ill. First time I had to get admitted to an institoution I was 22, I was diagnosed With drug induced psychosis at the time. Since then I have been admitted at numerous occasions in different wards.
I used to smoke alot of hashis the first and last time I was pcychotic, and at the end of my carrier of drug use it escalated With pills ans amphetamine. I have now been clean for two years.

I thought all my problems would og away when I quit drugs, but they did not. I have hallucinations almost every day in all the senses (Mostly smell). I also have alot of delutions, I allways think that people want to hurt me, are lying to me and conspire against me. I can't really trust anyone, not even my own Family.

Now the people treating me have a "hypotesis" that I have schitzo affective dissorder. They have told me that they can't be shure before I have not abused drugs in two years. I need to have my diagnosis so I am planning to quit my medicine so they will see that I am really sick.

It has been a long and har road for me just because I started using drugs when I was 15. I want to stop taking my medicine so they will see that it is something behind the drugs.

I am currently on 10mg Abilify.

Take care

Hi there ScAfLi and welcome to the forum!

Congrats on being clean 2 years. I'm sorry to hear about the continued hallucinations and paranoia. Have you mentioned your desire to quit your medication to your doctors? I think it would be a good idea as medications are usually reduced gradually, to avoid withdrawal symptoms.

janjones wrote:Hi there ScAfLi and welcome to the forum!

Thank you!

Today I don't feel like quitting my medication. I will most sertantly get psychotic again, and that's not a Place I want to be.
I often get these ideas of taking drastic measures, then the next day or within a couple of hours I don't feel like doing that anymore. I have mentioned quitting to the doctors before, they say it's dangerous for me to quit.

Something strange I did yesterday: After I wrote my post here I went to a party and took two lines of amphetamine. So now I have not been clean for two years anylonger!
I have been awake now for thirty hours, but I feel ok. Amphetamine takes all the bad thoughts in my head away and makes it empty. It feels good to get some time off.
I know this is very bad, but done is done. I can't go back in time- I just have to move on like I allways do.

Take care

Go see a doctor called Roald Strand in Oslo. He will help you. No medicine, just vitamins.

ScAfLi wrote:

janjones wrote:Hi there ScAfLi and welcome to the forum!

Thank you!

Today I don't feel like quitting my medication. I will most sertantly get psychotic again, and that's not a Place I want to be.
I often get these ideas of taking drastic measures, then the next day or within a couple of hours I don't feel like doing that anymore. I have mentioned quitting to the doctors before, they say it's dangerous for me to quit.

Something strange I did yesterday: After I wrote my post here I went to a party and took two lines of amphetamine. So now I have not been clean for two years anylonger!
I have been awake now for thirty hours, but I feel ok. Amphetamine takes all the bad thoughts in my head away and makes it empty. It feels good to get some time off.
I know this is very bad, but done is done. I can't go back in time- I just have to move on like I allways do.

Take care

every so often i quit my medication and i always end up in a mess. going off medication without supervision is just plain dangerous. I am part way through a drug reduction admission and it has taken me over 2 weeks just to minimally reduce 2 drugs and get off one (topomax). I expect to be in the ward for at least another 2 weeks on and off. Also there are always new drugs coming along. I start on Aminsulpride when I get out, after i have further reduced my med load. i hve never used vitamins as a therapy as my shrink didnt support using that treatment.

-- Sat May 18, 2013 7:03 am --

also-you need to keep in touch with your doc

I have a lot of smell hallucinations too. I don't really mention them though cuz most of the time it doesn't bother me much.

I've had to quit my meds because my insurance dropped me several times because of stupid reasons. Anyway it wasn't a good thing i was a mess. I use to have hallucinations where i smelled stuff too mostly dead rotting animals in the walls, which freaked out my partner's mom who thought there was dead rats in her walls.