Remorse about Sexual Behavior, looking for community

Hello!

I recently talked to my therapist and he recommended finding a place to talk about sex addiction and the messed up things I did when I was younger.
I’ve been in a pretty deep depression/shame spiral because I remembered a lot of stuff i’ve done when I was younger that were not consensual and/or unusual with younger family members. I know that I hurt people and could have hurt people and I invaded people privacy for the sake of sex and sexual gratification. I won’t go into details because it’s difficult.
I also suffer from OCD and these topics will non stop be in my head and haunting me. Part of me feels like I don’t deserve anything good, a career, my family, friends. I have spoken to some people in my family and my close friends and they showed support they know how much remorse I feel but I just can’t move forward.
These things I did, I did not realize how harmful they were at the time and that scares me. I don’t want to harm anyone further and my ocd really picks on that.
It doesn’t help that I have a pretty radical political stance.

Life feels really exhausting and scary and I don’t know how to move forward. Part of me is here in hopes of finding community, people to talk to. I wish us all healing. Thank you

Hey, I'm here for similar reasons to you. I also did something seriously screwed up in my past and struggle with feeling like it makes me irredeemable and I've ruined my family.

I don't know how old you were when you did the things you feel guilty about, but I was 19.

I wish I had more to add, but I don't know the way forward either. I'll be here if you have anything you'd like to talk about.