This is eating me up

I feel like I am the worst person to exist and that I should just ######6 end everything and die. When I was 20 years old (about 2 years ago) I was in a relationship with a 17 year old. Where I live the legal age of Consent is 16 but I just feel like what I did was morally wrong. I have seen a lot of people on social media getting cancelled and being called groomers and pedophiles for getting exposed for talking to people under 18 and I must fall into the category as well and be the same as those people. I have always had the belief that being a pedophile or a rapist is the worst thing anyone could ever do. But I have come to the realization that I must be some sick disgusting pedo or something. I honestly just feel like I do not deserve to be here anymore. *mod edit* I literally am so disgusted with myself. I have been depressed for months and continue to think about this. I feel nothing but pain and hell. I probably deserve to be in hell and I definitely deserve to feel this way. I think I am just going to do the world a favor and leave.

I think you seriously ought to see a therapist, if you aren't already. This is bordering on some OCD style behaviour.

The age of consent is satisfied; and there is three whole years difference- which means less and less as time goes by, and you were one year out of being a teenager, yourself. Seriously, sweetie- let this GO. I've known more than one 20+ dating younger than that, with parental permission, at that.

This seriously needs to be let go of.