i hate myself

hello, i just hate myself and i can't stop hating myself. i just feel so bad for everything i've done wrong and i just feel like i ruined the lives of good people who i cared about..now all i feel is guilt and self-hatred and i feel it will never end.

all i wanted to feel was young and loved ad confident, but i don't deserve that. i just want to be endlessly punished and be nothing and feel nothing...

You're not worst that any of us. You're just a human and you made errors. It's nothing wrong. Actions can be bad, but humans aren't. There's no person that's born bad and hopeless. Look at me, for example, extremely narcissistic person, living on just a lies, which are to hide deeply hidden self-contempt, lazy and hypocritical. Do you think you're really worse than me? ;)

Live man, deal with it, think that you are not so bad. You can always fix evil and pay back with good.