Feel awful

When I was 12 i had to bath a child. I curled my fingers in case one went inside I would feel like a horrible person. I also wanted to snuggle that child but had an impulse for our privates to touch clothed so i slid them up between my legs knowing our privates would touch. It was a real bad impulse i didnt want to do it but felt compelled. I also pressed my dogs mouth to my privates clothed and to my breast. It was also a anxious impulse i acted on. None of it was for sexual gratification. I feel so awful. I had to get it out though.

Children are in the process of learning to develop boundaries and do weird things. You were still very young yourself.

I agree with sprock. You don't need to feel awful about yourself. Those things are in the past. It is much more important that you don't do things that might hurt someone (child or animal), now. How old are you, now? Was that a long time ago?

It happened 30 years ago. I am 42 and when it happened I was 12.

So this was a LONG time ago; you were pretty young. You haven't done it, since. You certainly aren't a bad person.