Why would i do this?

Hello everyone!
I am hoping i can get some help and insight on this matter as it is truly confusing me.

I have OCD... which i KNOW affects this issue and how i view it.. and i am entirely unsure if this is deserving of remorse at all.

*TW*

A few days ago at my job as a pedagogue (Kindergarten teacher) i was at the swings, pushing this boy on one of the swings, he had crawled into one of those special swings where it's a whole seat so the toddlers wont fall out. While i was pushing the swing a thought popped into my head that i could pretend to "grope" a butt on the plastic seat and no one would know nor would it be wrong as the kid sat in a "hard plastic" seat effectively covering his entire butt, so there would never be a butt to actually touch, nor would he feel anything. The thing is.. i KNOW for a fact that i have no sexual desires toward kids, nor boys, and i had no actual interest to actually touch this persons butt. My POCD is making me wonder if this is some subconscious desire that i am unaware of.. although it seems absolutely ridiculous.

I seriously thought about doing this for what seems like no reasonable explanation, but i am pretty sure i didn't... this is where my false memory OCD comes to play as i started doubting if i did it or not, close to 5 mins afterward..

Lastly.. Real event OCD is blowing this up in my mind... making it a bigger deal than it probably needs to be... i mean i know no one would've gotten hurt even if i had done it, and i know that i am not attracted to kids.. And it's not like i go around doing something like this, as far as i can tell this was some impulse thing.

Hoping to get some comments on this, as i am REALLY confused as to why i would consider doing this in the first place.. Thank you...

Honestly, it's just an intrusive thought and it came into your head because OCD is evil - it latches on to the most taboo possible subjects. But it was just a thought. So calm yourself if you can. You're fine

Sprock to the rescue once again, thank you

I am dealing with quite well.. i suppose i know my OCD quite well, and how it tries to confuse me xD Even if i had done it which i doubt i did, i still don't think it would be a monstrous act.. poor judgement, yes but not horrible at all This is pretty far from hurtful, nor was there any "bad" intent, and nor would i ever consider such a thought again.
I can live with this, thank you once again Sprock

No worries! And agreed it's OCD and wouldn't have been monstrous anyway, just stupid!

I sometimes have an urge to poke somebody's belly with a finger, and sometimes I do it. Bellies are so nice and squishy and they're nice to poke. I imagine baby butts are also nice and squishy.